Monday, April 28, 2008
A female singer who I admired a lot. Simple melody with heart wrenching lyrics. That's Penny Dai for you.
Labels: Music
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
11:50 PM
11:50 PM
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Been reading Baby Blues recently. It is a very funny comic on the pains or should I said fun one will encounter when interacting with children.
This make me wonder aloud on the emotions one need to go through as a parent. Is it really as scary as some parts where the child will cry continuously if not being held or fed at a particular timing? Or will it be as blissful as the joy one get when you see that little creature which look like you sleeping in peace on that little bed that you have got for it?
This also make me wonder on how my children would behave or look like if I have some in the future. (I do wish to have children further down the road in life)
I can easily list some of the bad points that I would not want him or her to inherit from me . I will try to keep the list short here.
1) Laziness. The number one thing that I hate about myself and yet my inability to deal with it bother me till no ends.
2) Lack of patience. Patience is a great virtue but sadly it is one thing that I am lacking in.
3) Being a sore Loser. I hate losing and I don't hide my emotions well when defeat of any kind loom down on me. Be it just a simple ball game or PC game but I absolutely hate losing in anything I do.
4) Inability to listen to any advice when it is being given. Due to my impatience, I do not fathom the need to listen to others when I think I can solve the problem myself soon. As what people like to say of me, Ti Qi( pronounce in hokkien ).
5) Stubbornness when used in certain times can be translated to persistence. Too bad for me, my stubbornness is always used in the wrong areas.
I try not to include too much so as to not scare off potential dates who are reading this. Ha. Self humor is a good way to kill time when you are alone in front of the PC. :)
Labels: Life
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
10:19 PM
10:19 PM
Sunday, April 20, 2008
This post goes out to a long time buddy of mine. I am already feeling a bit bad now for being a bit harsh on him just now but I think it's about time for him to get his feet up again.
What he is going through now is similar to what I had been through. There is someone that you desperately want by your side but the sad truth is this is not what the other party have in mind. A lot of things in this world can be planned. Like how you spend your money, how you spend your precious time with your loved ones and how you want to live your life. Love is sadly not one of the above.
You might think that the guy in her life is like shit. No way comparable to you. But then again, who are we to judge? Love is and should always be a two way communication highway. If it is always you who are trying to make things work, this can't be considered love.
To be honest, I am struggling to find a term for it. It is simply infatuation. Longing for something that you will never get is a pet peeve for human beings. Especially for guys. I got to admit it but it seems like things that we can't lay our hands on are things that get us all work up over. Is it really love that is driving you on or simply a need to justify all those time and effort spent?
Love should never and could never be measure by the amount of time and effort spend on someone. To be honest, I am bad on this topic too but love to me is something that will make you feel like you are no longer alone in this world. Yes. Love should be something that complete you. Make you feel wanted and give you the extra courage to face the difficulties ahead in life.
Now I hope that my friend here will just magically wake up one day and be back to his normal self but I know this won't happen. Love is a double edged sword. If you are holding on to the grip of the sword, you are good to face the whole world. But if it is the blade that you are holding on to, the pain it give out is much more than any pain that you can find out there. The only solution is to let go of it.
No one can make you do that expect you. Yes. You are your own antidote and poison. Letting go will not heal you immediately but with the best medicine out there that is called Time, you will be fine soon. I am sure of this. I am not the best adviser in love out there but I am very sure that time will heal all wounds and pain.
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
Labels: Love
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
11:43 PM
11:43 PM
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Well, here I am again. Trying to create a post. There were a lot of things that were floating in my head during the shower. Even more thoughts came rushing to my head as I were walking back to my van to get back my spectacles. Yes. I am that damn blur even at the age of 28.
28. To be honest, this age seems a bit strange to me. I had the same feeling back then when I reach 21. I am not considered an adult back then but neither can someone treat me as a teenager anymore. Now that I am 28, there is no way that I can be consider as young anymore but neither am I at the stage where you can call me mature (nicer word for uncle). I don't know if this is a case of mid life crisis or trying to get a focal point in life but it seems to me that life just kinda zip pass me over the past 28 years.
Just what had I really achieve over the past 28 years? This is one question that I seems to have no answer to. One thing that I heard quite often from my friends are that, Christopher, you are a nice guy. But to rank that as an achievement seems a bit far-fetched.
To be honest, at times I hoped I can be that jerk or bastard that everyone want a piece of. I think from their perspective, nice guys are someone for them to step on for their advancement in life. I think in my line of work (construction, which I got to admit might not really be my cup of tea), being nice will never get you anyway. Those who are far ahead are those who can make strangers feel like they are their long lost siblings and those who need their cooperation begging them for it. Yes. Help is not necessary unless there are something in there for them.
This made me take a step back and think of this. Would I feel differently if I have a family now? As in having a wife and maybe one or two kids in tow. Is having a family considered an achievement? To be having a happy family is likely to be considered an achievement but being the pessimistic me who had witnessed the break down of my own parents marriage when my dad left us make me shiver when I think of marriage. To me, there are so many things that might go and can go wrong.
This might be one of the reasons why I had been single for quite sometime now. Discounting the fact of my last DOOMED infatuation with someone, I had hardly opened up myself to someone of the opposite sex.
The fear of rejection plays a part but the larger fear is that where is this thing going to lead us to? Marriage? Shiver will then start to set upon me. Am I dating the right girl? Will she last the distance if I decided to be serious? To be honest, at times like this I wish I can just take things easily like a lot of my friends do.
Well, wanted to post more but I think the Zzzz monster is calling out to me. Gonna brush my teeth(I don't want to spend $500 for a root canal treatment again!!) before hitting the sack. Nightzz ;)
Labels: Life
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
12:30 AM
12:30 AM
Monday, April 14, 2008
Mas Selamat bin Kastari. A name all familiar to us by now. Just read in the news that Prof Jayakumar were asking S'poreans not to dwell on the fact that a major security breach had happened. Reminding us of the past good work that were done by the Home Team. Well, truth is that this major security breach had already happened and I am sure that what all S'poreans would just want to know how this had happened and what are the steps to prevent a similar incident like this from happening again.
I think MM Lee summarize it best by laying down the true facts. We were being complacent. The core of the problem here is that success had breed complacency into the minds of the top brass in the Home Team. I can't imagine if a major fatal financial decision were made by the board of directors in a listed company. They were definitely be in depth investigation carried out with the findings opened up to all the shareholders. Since the pay of our ministers and civil servants are always being compared to the top 25% of the talent in the private sector, I would also like to see the same being meted out if they did something wrong. No more artificial encouragements like how this incident had strengthen the country or how the community had played its part in trying to locate the fugitive. That's just bollocks to me.
Labels: Politics
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
11:23 PM
11:23 PM
Friday, April 11, 2008
Took up this quizz which I chanced upon on Elvina blog. Kinda true for me. Ha
http://www.the-n.com/quizzes/
Labels: Quiz
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
10:49 PM
10:49 PM
A long awaited post. That's if there is still anyone out there who are still watching this space for updates. Well, times really fly when you are getting older. I had been busy lately with my new found love. It's a small white ball that is lying there waiting for you to hit it with a perfect swing. My new love is the game called Golf.
To be honest, the thought of learning golf never crept into my mind before. To me, the game looks boring. Worse was the fact that there were so many different clubs in your bag that you got to choose to help you on your way to the putt.
What started out as a simple yes to the request of Chin Hui turned out to be a full blown love affair towards golf. My whole department is attending golf lesson currently once a week at the Seletar Country Club. (this kinda explain the lack of posts as to be honest, the only thing you wanna do after driving to there and back home is to sleep)
This is on top of our visits to the driving range twice a week. The session on Sat is a killer most of the time as we will normally begin at 2 and only end at close to 6. Spare a thought for my aching back.
I think the satisfaction I got from all these is that my game is improving. Well, there is still a LOT of room for improvement but I am happy that my swing is starting to form and consistency is creeping into my game. The feeling you get from hearing the sound given by the ball when you hit it the right way is indescribable. :)
I also have someone living with me under the same roof now. My new found tenant, Ms Joanne Gan. If only you were more accommodating with my relentless request for supper every now and then, you would be the perfect tenant for me. ;P Study hard and hopefully I will get a chance to speak more than 10 sentences with you per day. Yes. She is that busy. Busier than me.
Anyway, I will also be starting my part time studies in July. Yes. I had finally gotten my Edu Loan and is ready to go back to school. A strange feeling that I am volunteering to get my ass back to school when no one can see me in S'pore Poly back then when I were still young. Age really will mellow us up. I am no longer that young chap with that intolerable attitude and absolute intolerance towards authority. Will share more on that when more details are made known to me.
On board the Singapore Flyers with the lads.
Labels: Happenings in life
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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