Life is a game of waiting.. Waiting for the right ride to take us off to the sunset

Saturday, March 26, 2005

I managed to post this blog only after using 1 whole day to get over my hangover. Yes, I was drunk. I haven't had the feeling for don't know how long. Thanks a lot to Gary and Tessa who ordered the Flaming Samborga and Waterfall for me. I just sucks at drinking liquor. I can drink beer the whole night long but liquor... Hard.. Anyway, I was trying to help Gary to get Tessa drunk. She has a tendency to buy people drinks when she is high or drunk. And guess what. Gary actually order the drinks for me instead. Talk about being a good help. I think he didn't realize that our target was Tessa, not me.

Anyway, what happened that night was we had a gathering. I mean it had been a long time since we met up for drinks and chat. Most of my colleagues from my agency were there. If I can recall correctly, there were Gary, Aik Guang, Grace, Evon, Tessa, Pig Head, me, Eileen and his Bf.( Forgot his name. :P) Some others joined us in the later part of the night. Was thinking of going to Balaclava but switched to Zee Ten as it was damn crowded at Bala. It's getting more and more crowded by the day. Zee 10 was quite a nice place to sit down, have some drinks and a chat but their live music loses out to Bala. Balaclava live band is still better than Zee 10. Anyway, drinks at Zee 10 is quite reasonable. They have a 1 for 1 offer till nine and 1 pint of Hoogarden is $13++. Started the night with 1 pint of Hoogarden(1 more pint for free) and shared 1 glass of red wine with Gary. The red wine is quite ok for a house wine though I am no expert with Red Wine. Still can't get the idea why people prefer red wine to beer. Beer to me is the best Beverage that God had given to men. ;)

By the end of the night, if I remember correctly, i had 1 Flaming Samborga, 1 waterfall, 1 glass of red wine, 2 pint of Hoogarden and a few mugs of beer. I can't recall the last part cause I was high after the waterfall. Damn. I must have acted stupidly and talked rubbish to Tessa. All I can recall was chatting a lot with her and then smsing her when I was on the cab back. To be honest,I have no idea how I made my own way home after being dropped off by Gary and Aik Guang( i never pay for the cab ;P), took off my contact lenses and drag myself to bed. I woke up in amazement that I wasn't sleeping along the streets but on my bed. Anyway, if I did said something stupid when I was drunk, please forgive me. Some people sleep when they are drunk,some will hit others but for me I will talk non stop. ;)

You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
6:23 PM

Monday, March 21, 2005

Well, here I am again. Blogging at an unholy hour. Just had supper with Vincent. My first supper in a week. Currently on a diet and exercise program to get rid of that flabby stomach around my waist. I had been jogging for at least twice a week for 2 weeks now. I usually jog at around 10.30 p.m. It is not humid and there is not much human traffic blocking my way. Been running to and fro from my home to Bedok Reservoir Park. I think it should be at least 3km for one round. I love the feeling you get after a jog. Your mind feel fresher after a jog. For those lazy bums who haven't been exercising, better start now. It is always hard to start the engine but once started, it will run smoothly soon. :)

Something embarassing happened to me and Weiguo on Wed. We went over to JB that day for lunch, movie, shopping and dinner. Everything went smoothly. We had a nice meal of curry fish head for lunch. Caught Millon Dollar Baby at the theatre. The show was nice but spoilt by rude stupid Malaysians who were either chatting throughout the film or sleeping. I finally understand why they prefer pirated DVDs to theatre. I mean no people of sane mind will want to watch a film with live commentary behind you. We then proceed to dinner when things started to turn embarassing. Turn out we don't have enough cash left as I had ordered too much food. I tried to get money from an atm but apparently that stupid machine don't accept my MasterCard. Luckily, the aunty there was kind enough to accept payment in a mixture of Sing dollar and Ringitt. The bill was R$73. We gave her R$50 and S$11. We left immediately after settling the bill.

Had dinner with Lan on Tues. For your info, she was the only gal who can manage a relationship with me for more than 2 years. It had been 3 years since we last met. Well, she hasn't really changed much. I was late as usual that night for dinner. The whole thing lasted less than 2 hours. All we did was dinner and drinks at a cafe. The things we chatted were so normal. Like how's her work and where she is staying now. But I never asked her the question that I am dying to ask. If she is still attached now. The words just stuck in my mouth, unwilling to come out. Not that I am interested in her.Ok maybe a bit of interest is still there. I mean I never really got over her. Anyway, all I want to know was how's her love life and if she is attached, how's her bf is treating her. I mean she still have a place in my heart. I know that for sure as we had went through quite a lot together. And all I want is the best for her. ;)

Met my old lover in the grocery store
The snow was falling christmas eve
I stole behind her in the frozen foods
And I touched her on the sleeve

She didn’t recognize the face at first
But then her eyes flew open wide
She went to hug me and she spilled her purse
And we laughed until we cried.

We drank a toast to innocence
We drank a toast to now
And tried to reach beyond the emptiness
But neither one knew how.

Just for a moment I was back at school
And felt that old familiar pain
And as I turned to make my way back home
The snow turned into rain --

You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
2:46 AM

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Well well. So many things have changed ever since I last visited my friendster list. U might be wondering why am I still blogging at this unholy hour( Which I always does ). I had just finished sending out my resumes for the day(I started late) and was looking for something to unwind myself after a hard day of sending resume. Trust me. It is tiring to do the same old thing for about 30+ times per day.;) I decided to pay the friendly friendster a visit. It was the place that enable me to get the no of my crush and also to know that my ex gf might still be single (talk about that later). And guess what? I found out that my crush is already in a relationship. No sour grapes here but I am glad for her. She is a nice lady and it was a surprise she managed to stay single for so long. I visited a lot of my friends info and found out that most of them are attached now. Even Yupei, who is one of my closest female friend is "Married". Good for her. I always believe that she deserves someone good by her side.

I immediately have a thought popping out in my mind. I been catching the chinese drama on TCS 8(the only local production that I watched this year) and one of the phrase the dad in the show like to say goes like this; " The one who will be with you might not be your ideal lover. But if he is sincere to you and managed to touch your heart for that one moment, do think it over"

Am I still single because I have too high of a standard of what I want? I really don't know. I mean love to me is when time and fate bring two people who have the same goal in life together. Some of my friends do say that I should try to lower my so called standard and give myself a chance. I really don't know how to reply to all this. I mean I am sure everyone is looking for that perfect love but what if she never come at all? Must I force myself to compromise and stick to someone I might not really like but because she had done things for me that touched my heart? Or am I still waiting for that someone who had left me long ago and might not ever be back to fill up that gap in my heart. If the answer is yes, I really hope to be able to fill it up soon. Seeing so many of my friends being in a relationship have make me more determined to find my "Perfect Love". I am so envy of them. I always feel that it is great to have someone special by your side doing those things that you like together. My friends might be thinking that I am implying sex here but NO!! ;) I really hope that their relationship can be long lasting and the one beside them now is what they will deem as The Perfect Love.

Hitch is one of the movies that I had waited since the beginning of the year. I am very sure that I will find the tips in the movies very useful to me. I am more than willing to brand myself as an idiot in my dating life(never succeed in more than 3 dates with the same gal ever since I broke up with my ex ). But the problem is no female being that I know had not seen the show. I asked close to everyone that I knew and the reply was all like; " It is a great show. U must watch it!!" Of course I know it is a great show but show like this, if you watch it with a guy, they might think that we are gay. Watch it with a bunch of guys and you might reflect on why the heck you can't even get a single female soul to watch it with you. So to all my female readers who had not catch the show yet, please let me know if you wanna watch it together. I know I might sound desperate but I really hate the thought of waiting for abt 3 months before I can download the DVD version of the film from ARES. Shitty kind of feeling. ;P Hope that IDA won't see this. Nitezzz... ZZzzzzzzz

You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
3:57 AM

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Been listening to Keane for quite sometime. I think that they are a fantastic band. They are right on top of my favourite British Band list along with ColdPlay. One of the songs that I am always listening now is We Might As Well Be Strangers.

"We Might As Well Be Strangers"

I don't know your face no more
Or feel your touch that I adore
I don't know your face no more
It's just a place I'm looking for
We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well

I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a another time
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well be strangers
Be strangers
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know

I downloaded most of the songs from their album( I am Broke!! Will buy it when I am working)and all the songs that I had downloaded is nice. I would strongly recommend this album to you people out there.

Anyway, some updates of sort on my life. Basically, I had been to countless interviews, fill in countless forms and met up with countless people. I always find it amazing that I got to fill in every single things in the application form when I had already sent a resume to them in the first place. I mean there is more info of me in the resume than what is required on the form. Do the interviewers like to see people spending 15-20 mins filling in the stupid form which will reflect whatever info they already had in the first place??

"Somewhere Only We Know"

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
3:22 PM