Monday, December 26, 2005
轨迹
怎么隐藏我的悲伤
失去你的地方
你的发香散的匆忙我已经跟不上
闭上眼睛还能看见
你离去的痕迹
在月光下一直找寻那想念的身影
如果说分手是痛苦的起点
那在终点之前我愿意再爱一遍
想要对你说的不敢说的爱
会不会有人可以明白
我会发着呆然后忘记你
接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天会有人代替
让我不再想念你
我会发着呆然后微微笑
接着紧紧闭上眼
回想那一年你温柔的脸
在我忘记之前
心里的眼泪
模糊了视线
你会看不见
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
8:51 PM
8:51 PM
Everytime our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams.
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me, baby you surround me
You touch everyplace in my heart
Oh, it feels the first time everytime
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes
Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
4:51 PM
4:51 PM
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
F**king high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
1:15 PM
1:15 PM
Merry Christmas to everyone out there. This had been one of the most unforgettable amd memorable Christmas that I had ever been through. Though it ended in a sad note, I prefer to dwell on the happy side. One of my dreams was fulfiled. Though it was cruelly taken away from me after a day, but hey, at least I live the dream before. It was as good as I had imagined it to be. I am smiling as I am typing this and thinking about it. If time was to be turn back, I will make the same decision. I never regretted it for a single moment. Even though I had to wake up from this sweet dream in the end.
First, apologizes to Kenn. Was unable to catch up with you last week. Seems like our timetable is always a bit off from each other. I think we meet after New Year k? Feeling damn crappy now. No mood to have any form of decent conversation and also discuss abt LGM. Also got to say sorry to friends who had asked me out for Christmas eve and Christmas Bash. I was sorry that i couldn't make it due to unforseen circumstances. Will make up to you guys soon. ;)
It is strange to be blogging at such an early hour. Try as i had but I just can't seems to shut my eyes and take a well deserved rest. It is at times like this that I hope that I can have amnesia. If only I could choose just what memories to forget and what to keep. Maybe life will be better. But then again, no one single person will be able to only give you good memories of him or her. The good must definitely come with the bad. It is just that the good memories are keeping me wide awake. I always seems to remember the happy and wonderful times someone had given me. If I could only just concentrate on the bad memories, maybe life wouldn't be so miserable now. I could use the bad memories to forget about all that had happened. I just can't. I had try my best but I just can't. Never thought that I will be using this word on me but I am really feeling miserable now. The more I type, the more I am beginning to hate that someone up there. Is this a form of test for me? Why make me have a view of paradise only to throw me back into hell? If you are trying to break me, I am so sorry. I am made of stronger stuff than this. I will be back stronger and kicking. Yes, this is what i will aim for in the New Year. I will move on soon. Anyway, time is really a great healing medicine. The only thing bad about it is that it can be too slow for your liking at times.
Friends who care about me, just leave me alone for the time being. Don't ask me about what had happened. It is very private. I will be glad if I can be allow to keep some secrets of my own. Just let this blog be my explaination for my strange behaviour for these past few days and maybe for the next few weeks. To you: You know who you are, ;) I will try to move on as promised. You must keep your side of the promise too. Move on and forget about everything that had happened.
我想要学会自我催眠
痛觉会少一些
潜意识作祟想着想到失眠
我躺在没有你的房间
寂寞更加明显
我渐渐的自我催眠
却回不到从前
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
9:41 AM
9:41 AM
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Some of you guys out there might had seen me on Tv last Fri night. I had not seen it personally but heard it from some of my friends. I was being interviewed on Frontline, a current affairs programme on Channel 8.
Comments on my appearance on TV range from: your hair is messy (When will u ever comb your hair so neat when u are just going down to pack lunch?!?!), you look damn sleepy (I just came back from appointment what, travelling will make u tried), your eyes really damn small (This is a bit personal liao, when did u ever seen me with big eyes? For this U got to check with my parents on why was I born with such small eyes) and why you chose to speak english when the interview is for Channel 8 (I had just read the news article and it was in ENGLISH. :P)
Not sure when will the repeat be. Just feel kinda strange if I was to see myself on Tv. See when I was very young (6-9 yrs old lah), I used to like imaging that I was singing in front of a lot of fans. Yup. I did dreamt of becoming a singer when I was young. I think it was in my genes. My Dad (useless as he might be) used to sing for those Teochew drama troupe and according to my mum, part of the reason why she fell in love with him. My sis (who had since left me) used to be quite good in singing. Was with some sort of band before she got married. Sadly though, as I grew older I began to realize that no way will I be fulfiling this dream.
First, I always get cold feet in front of strangers. Yes. I am shy. Don't think anyone who is unsure of himself can make it in the entertainment circle. Secondly, my looks suck. I am not like some handsome guy who can sweep ladies off their feet nor cute enough to make gals go ga ga over me. And lastly, I just don't have the voice to make people swoon over my singing.
Why am i saying all this? Well, cause I realize that not all dreams come true. Be it your personal life or your love life. Yes, you might be disappointed but life moves on. Sometimes, dreams are most beautiful when you never get them. Cause if it turns out to be not what you had imagined, I can't fathom the disappointment you will get from it.
No way am I saying that you should just give up your dreams when difficulties abound and just dream about it. You should always try your very best. I did but had to give it up when all the circumstances were just against me. Yes. We can dream but we also have to be realistic in our dreams. No point dreaming to get the star down by your side when you know deep in your heart that it will never happen and it will be most beautiful and happy at where it used to be.
Hope that your dreams will come true. I am still dreaming though. Though I know that it will never happen. Memories of how hard I had try to reach it and the stupid things that I had done will never fail to bring a smile to my face. Imagination is boundless.
好心好报
落力为你好得不到分数
你决定要跟他日后同步
他不懂爱惜你我乐意操劳
还看着你看你在悬崖走路
他却放下你只照顾自己
我这片苦心无人赞美
还不敢开口不能妒忌
对你好无人稀罕我好
无人欣赏我好
原来你习惯他一套
从来没有爱我看得清楚我知道
不必得到不妨陪衬但愿为你好
好明明比他更好旁人都知我好
为何你又与他拥抱来磨练我
我信有好心得好报
好人似我问谁做到
是受罪也好听听你哭诉
你说难过总比分手更好
你说几多的女主角也受过煎熬
情况坏到你信任来年一日
他答应做到统统都做到
我也似你的无从劝告
宁愿牺牲都不愿却步
虽然这秒时辰未到
我太好无人珍惜我好
无人喜欢我好
原来要学会他一套
从来没有吻过记得清楚我知道
不必得到不妨陪衬但愿为你好
好明明比他更好旁人都知我好
无人爱慕我忍得到
仍然相信我会有天终于等到
可能你有日会知道
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
12:01 AM
12:01 AM
