Sunday, October 23, 2005
Cry your hearts out. All you little Red Devils. No way will Manure win the EPL this season. All this talk of concentrating on winning the Champions League is making me laugh. Though I am a Spurs fan, I know that we are not a match for Barcelona or AC Milan. If we can get a draw here, who would bet against them winning at Old Trafford against Manure. For all my Manure friends out there, just keep quiet for the time being. You guys had been bragging for a long time. It's time you guys stop. :)
I had finally got a case. Should be in the region of around 15 cards. Really hoping for more to come in as I will need the money for my christmas gifts. The pay should be coming in at around Dec. Which make it just nice for gifts and also my company year end trip to Bintan. Though Bintan sounds a bit boring, but I am sure that the companionship counts more than the place. Looking forward towards it. I would really do well with a break. Especially after this few shitty months. Everything seems to be going wrong.
Weekend was boring. The bright spot were watching Spurs got a draw at Old Trafford and my dear friend, Key appearing on The Sunday Times. She is the sporty lady on The Sunday Times Sports Section. Way to go Gal!! ;) My Rt will be ending at the end of next Sunday. I could finally have my Sat back. I had been too dormant for my liking. Need to add a little bit of spice back in my life. Going out to Tampines Mall now for dinner with Vincent and Adlin. Could do well with a break from my home.
愛笑的眼睛
如果不是那镜子
不像你不藏秘密
我还不肯相信
没有你我的笑更美丽
那天听你在电话里略带抱歉的关心
我嘟的一声切的比你说分手彻底
泪湿的衣洗干净阳光里晒干回忆
折好了伤心明天只和快乐出去
这爱的城市虽然拥挤
如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异我的笑她无法代替
离开你我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛流过泪
像躲不过的暴风雨
淋湿的昨天删去(忘记)
离开你我才找回自己
那爱笑的眼睛再见爱情
我一定让自己让自己决定
泪湿的衣洗干净阳光里晒干回忆
折好了伤心明天只和快乐出去
这爱的城市虽然拥挤
如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异我的笑她无法代替
离开你我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛流了泪
当一个人看旧电影
是我不小心而已
离开你我才找回我自己
那爱笑的眼睛再见到你
我一定让自己让自己坚定
离开你我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛流过泪
像躲不过的暴风雨
淋湿的昨天忘记
离开你我才找回自己
那爱笑的眼睛再见爱情
我一定让自己让自己坚定
再见到你
我一定让自己假装很坚定
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
6:20 PM
6:20 PM
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
| Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating |
 You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility. |
| Your Career Type: Artistic |
 You are expressive, original, and independent. Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art. You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary. |
A change of career soon? ;P
| How You Life Your Life |
 You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down. |
| You Are Likely a Third Born |
 At your darkest moments, you feel vulnerable. At work and school, you do best when you're comparing things. When you love someone, you tend to like to please them. In friendship, you are loyal to one person. Your ideal careers are: sales, police officer, newspaper reporter, inventor, poet, and animal trainer. You will leave your mark on the world with inventions, poetry, and inspiration. |
| The Keys to Your Heart |
 You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
Absolutely TRUE!!
| You're a Romantic Kisser |
 For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet |
Err, been sometime since I last kissed someone. So not too sure. But kinda true ba..
| Your Birthdate: July 12 |
 Being born on the 12th day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, sometimes "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about. You are affectionate and loving - but very sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs. |
Kinda true ba. To be honest, I don't really know myself well. Sometime, I can just change into an animal who I don't even know.
| Your Personality Is |
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours. |
| Your Kissing Purity Score: 71% Pure |
 For you, kissing isn't a casual thing Lip to lip action makes your heart sing |
Ha Ha Ha. See how pure I am!! :P
What Your Sleeping Position Says |
You are secretly sensitive, but you often put up a front. Shy and private, you yearn for security. You take relationships slowly. You need lots of reassurances before you can trust. |
True. I think I had enough for the night ba. It's already 1.30. Really hope that I can get to sleep. I need it. Hope that my heart will get used to this feeling so that I can sleep well again.
Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry
At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
1:30 AM
1:30 AM
Monday, October 17, 2005
Never knew that listening to radio can result in insonmia. Was trying to get some sleep and thought that listening to the radio might help me a bit here. Well, the love songs being played by Class 95 is simply too nice. I am not trying to advertise for them but I am a sucker for love songs. Esp at this moment. On a lonely Sun night.
Someone once told me that I am a person who is afraid of loneliness. This makes me wonder. Who is not afraid of loneliness? I might be used to it by now but I am still afraid of it. I always believe that God created people in pairs. If men were meant to stay alone and not in need of any help or companionship, why is there a need in having men and women? Why make us go through so much pain just to find your missing piece? Not deriding singlehood but one should be in a relationship sooner or later. It is a way of life. Searching for that someone is like searching for a missing piece in your heart. Only your heart can tell you who it need to fill up that hole. That hole of loneliness. The craving for that someone who can see through life together with you.
Some had found it. Some thought that they had found it. Some knew that the piece they are currently holding on to is not the missing piece. Yet, they choose to hold on to it as they felt a need for something to patch them up. They don't care if it is not a good match. All they want is something to block that hole inside their heart. I wish the best for them. It might just evolve into something that will match them. If not, just treat it as a learning experience. Life experience is best learnt from falls and tumbles. Not from listening to advice and keeping everything safe. An average life span is only around 75 yrs. We don't have that many years to screw up anyway.
Getting a bit emotional now. Don't know why but had this feeling that the hole in my heart is bleeding a bit more than usual tonight. It seems to be crying out for that missing piece to stop the bleeding. Not sure if it is just me, the weather or some other factors. I pray for a good night rest and the healing of my wound soon.
I am also praying that the missing piece you are holding on to now is the piece that your heart is crying out for. Have confidence in your decision. Like what I had said, all that matter is what your heart need and want. Only you yourself know which is your missing piece. Not me nor your friends. Just remember, even if you were to fall again, you will be better off as a person. And I will definitely be there to hold you back up again.
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
2:01 AM
2:01 AM
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Just read this from a blog. Find that it is kinda true. Here goes.
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. ( This goes out to a friend of mine. I hope u know who u are though u may be fucking pissed with me now. )
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.
Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other women and men (just so they know). You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
9:52 PM
9:52 PM
Finally!! I am blogging at the comforts of my home instead of some teen infested cyber cafe on a lazy Sunday afternoon. But things just don't turn out well for me nowadays. Even though my PC is working now, it is mute. Something is wrong with the onboard sound card. Hope that I can get it resolve soon. I had spent near to around $250 for it's upgrading. Not to mention the countless time I had spent on it. Hope that it can at least last me till next year. Hopefully by then i can afford an IMac as I really had enough crap from Microsoft. The timing would also be nice as my niece shall be enrolling into poly around that time. This PC would be a great gift for her. I am keeping my fingers cross though as her prelims results are simply a disappointment. But then again, I think I did even worse for my prelims than her. Hopefully she can clear her mind and study real hard for her O Levels. There is still sufficient time to make a difference.
Work had not been that smooth. My colleagues are great as usual but I just can't hit my personal target. Hopefully I will be able to close a few cases soon. Wanna end the year with a bang. The only joy for me this week was Spurs hitting 2nd spot in the EPL. 9 games played and we are just behind Chelsea. Never in my wildest dreams had I dreamt of this (though to be honest, I dream more of me dying or falling down from a clif than Spurs). I think this is one of the best start we had for years. Being on top of the Gooners is simply the icing on the cake. Screw Wenger and his french legion!! Rot in HELL!!
Been reading some articles on the Sunday papers. There had been a huge furor going over the donations being given to the Nepalese twins back in 2001. The donation of over 600K was supposed to last the twins for around 8 years. Only 4 years had passed and their parents are back for more. Men are greedy by nature. To have a sudden windfall of 600K is too much a temptation for my liking. Just like what Wang Na parents had done. Upgrading their home back in China with money given to them by S'poreans who felt sympathy for what happened to their little girl. I find this disturbing. I am sure that the money being used to upgrade their home would have been put to better use for other charities. A helping hand in cases like this seems to be doing more harm than good. I think we should really think hard before donating our money. I am all for charity but after seeing what had happened to NKF and now this, more control should be in place to ensure that dononation is not being mismanage.
Some friends of mine are also too helpful for my liking. I saw shadows of me in them. Trying my very best to help even though i might not have the ability to do it. There are a group of people in this world who simply don't deserve any help. To them, your helping hand is like a wall of support which they can always fall back on. They can screw up in anyway they like as they know come end of the day, you will be there to bail them out of hell. Help come in many forms. One of my favourite sentence is " Do not give the man a fish. Give him a rod and teach him how to fish. " We can only help someone out this much. Much depends on him to work something out.
Lastly, I notice that some of the visitors to my blog are from the US and Canada. Not sure how u guys get to know of my blog but hope that my blog is not boring out you guys. Feel free to leave a message or something.
Let It Go
I think we've been here before
I recognize this place
I've seen the marks of confusion
wipe out a single sign of grace
And I don't want to play anymore
Not when the stakes are so high
So before we circle round once more
I'm gonna lay down,
Lay down my pride
Let it go, let it be
Don't waste all your emotion on this
tit-for-tat machine
Let it go, let it be
Let it go
I turn on the TV
and it screams out at me
Nothing seems to have changed
since the start of Adam and Eve
So we're waiting for the sky to fall
and we're buying brand new toys
But before we circle round once more
Can we lay down
Just lay down this pride
Let it go, let it be
Don't waste all your emotion on this
tit-for-tat machine
Let it go, let it be
Let it go
Don't go wasting your emotions
No one wins if we keep score
Let it go, let it be
Let it go
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
9:32 PM
9:32 PM
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Every time i think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
While every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
8:29 PM
8:29 PM
Friday, October 07, 2005
Been quite a hectic week. Watched Goal with Kenn, Keith and Jan on wed night. Quite a nice movie though the male lead looks a bit unreal when he was playing soccer. This was follow by supper at Adam Rd. I had one whole plate of la la to myself. Think this will turn me off all shell based food for sometime.
Great news to announce. Key Chua is in the finals of Ford Supermodels of The World 2005. You guys may wonder who she is. Well, she is a freelance model with LGM and one of the few that I could get along well with. She is a joy to have by your side. I feel proud and happy for her. To be honest, things between us didn't got off to a good start. I can still remember that the first time I met her for an interview, she was wearing sloppily, late and brought her mum along. She was the first one to bring her mum along. I was thinking why a 19 year old lady would need to bring her mum along for a normal interview? My first impression of her was that she got good height, quite a nice face but too talkative for my liking. She was bombarding me with countless questions that was really getting on my nerves. I was thinking that I can't have this gal in LGM. She will drive me nuts. Well, let's just say that I am glad she had joined us.
Knowning her more make me realize that actually she is a very nice gal. Strong, independent, cheerful and fillial to her mum. Though she can still manage to amaze me at times on how clumsy and blur she can be. She is one of the few who will always bring a smile to my face. Seeing her grow from a lady who can't walk well( she is plain clumsy ), to a gal who is in the finals of the contest made me feel real proud. She is one of the few highlights in a disappointing year for LGM. I should shoulder much of the blame. My new work and RT is really beginning to take a toll on me. I am also spending too much time in trying to foster a relationship that I think that is deemed to fail. Shouldn't talk too much on that. Think I had spoken enough on that.
I will really need to jia you from now on. Short term goal is to get the rt off my back, clear all my debts (getting lesser and lesser), hit my target for the next three months in my job, get my pc repaired (yes it is still spoilt), start working hard on LGM and of course, more savings for me. Anything that comes along will be a bonus.
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
1:45 PM
1:45 PM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Well, I had failed my IPPT test. Disappointed that I failed it. I only managed to do 3 chin up which is 2 short of the requirement. From now on I will have to attend 3 RT sessions a week. Life is going to get more miserable. I will only have 1 day of rest in between training session. Damn. As if I am very free now. Work is getting more and more hectic by the day as I am trying my best to hit the target set by my manager. Bro, I am sorry that I am neglecting LGM. I promise that things will be back to normal once I get these stupid RT sessions out of my schedule. Anyway, this is the cyborg that I like.
This was written last night. Not sure if I should post it but since it had already been written. Might as well.
Words. Ever had the experience of trying to say something and yet always screwing up when you are saying it? Words like "I'm Sorry", "I'm missing you" etc. Some people just had the in born talent to speak what is in their mind without any second thoughts. While some just can't say what's in their mind even after a conversation lasting 1 hr 43 mins and 16 secs. I empathize with those who belong to the 2nd group as I fall straight into that category. Words. I totally sucks at constructing them into sentences and saying it out to the other party.
I think too much at times. What's meant to be yours will eventually be yours. No use tearing your hair out worrying about the unneccesary. This is what I had been trying to get into this dumb head of mine.
There are just something in life that is just not meant to be grasp by you. This maybe hurtful but just be glad that it had once cross your path and made your life more beautiful for that short moment.
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
9:18 AM
9:18 AM
Saturday, October 01, 2005
There could have never been a better time to post than now. The settings are right, the emotions are there and the timing is simply perfect. This current post that you are reading was actually written on a book due to my spoilt PC. How I wish I can have a PC now. It could be my best friend or should I say soul mate.
Speaking of this. Just what are the ingredients you need to find a soul mate? Someone who u like and who you can speak to. Someone who can stimulate life into you. Is there any way to find out? Or we would have to walk and fall to find out the answer? Is there a painless way to know more about this? What hurt are not the falls and tumbles. It is the scar that is imprinted on you and your heart. This hurts. Hurt of the highest degree. Various forms of medications are available due to the advance in medical science. I would gladly exchange all that for a medication which can heal the shallowness and hurt that I am feeling right now.
But hey, at least I am glad that I got this buggy issue out of my heart. I was telling how I really felt to someone for once. Though the results were nothing to crow about, at least I had tried. Friend. I am beginning to love this word more and more. Seems like I am just too damn good at collecting them.
Please ignore this after reading. Don't bother asking me what had happened or who am I talking about. This was simply written in a fit of emotion. Just like what I had done in this case. A classic case of letting your heart overuling your mind.
I must be more rational than emotional. Decisions should always be made based on rationale rather than emotions. Most of the decision made this way will go through. Even if it doesn't, you wouldn't feel that hurt cause no heart was placed into it.
Life is about love and passion. And what could be worse than the total agony of being in love?
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
3:13 PM
3:13 PM
