Thursday, March 23, 2006
Finally had the time to pen down my thoughts. Drowned with work ever since I started working. The culture of my new company is " No Man to Leave Early ". Everything there seems so alien to me. I know nuts about Electrical wiring, floor plans, intelligent building system or doing up a quotation. But really glad to be given the chance by Stanley to learn something new. I am quite sure that what I learn will be useful to me in the future. For those who want to know what my new job title is, I myself also not that sure. Should be Sales Engineer ba. I don't even have my appointment letter yet. Stanley is too busy.. ;)
Had a fun time at East Coast last Sat with my ex colleagues. I should call them my buddies instead. Been a long long long time since I last went to a beach. I am really hoping that this will turn into a monthly event. We all need the sun and sea breeze anyway. Next time we must go blading k? ;)
Knocked off work at 6.30 today (Which is the earliest for me in quite a while) and had a jog when I reached home. Starting to get back to jogging recently. I always feel great and refreshed after a jog. Things will clear up in my mind and I am able to tell myself to focus on what I want in life. Something, I might not be able get it but others are within my means to reach.
It is good to be determined but not that good to go against the will of others. Been hearing this from Vincent and Benson all week long. All your comments, good or bad had been noted in this brain of mine.
My life had become monotonous. Working like hell from Mon to Sat (Yes, I work on Sat too. Half a day which might change to full day if there is a need) and Sun is the only day I sleep like a log. I am just glad that I have Stanley, Rixin and Kevin to perk me up when I am feeling down at work. I had great fun talking cock with Rixin. Haha. He is the funniest guy I had ever seen from China. I think I can really get along well with people from the year of Rat.
I will be having my car test in July. I know it is still quite far away but I am really hoping that I can ace it before my birthday. It will be the best gift shall I pass the test.
To Melinda: I can't believe you are at Episode 80 of Naruto. I will try my best to catch up with you. Now at Episode 60. Chiong ah!!!!
Track that I am listening to now:
如果你还爱我
我带着一颗疲惫的心走了
我知道自己在你心里已不重要
虽然我们曾经相聚过
也许对于你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆
我带着一颗沉重的心走了
我知道自己没有勇气道别离
虽然我们曾经拥有过
但是对于你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆
难道早已注定
不能真正拥有你
当我真心付出一切
只为了承受孤单和寂寞
我知道你不敢对我表白
是不要看到我的伤怀
虽然你没有说要离开我
我已经感到你不在属于我
如果你还爱我
你不会对我如此的冷漠
又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊
如果你还爱我
你不会对我如此的冷漠
我只能含着眼泪默默的离开
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
10:40 PM
10:40 PM
Monday, March 20, 2006
One of my favourite songs from S.H.E. Listening to it at work and felt that I should share this song with u guys.
爱我的资格
把手放了
我也许会比较快乐
我也许会换个情人
我也许不会再撑
真的够了
能不能让雨别再下了
能不能让心别再疼了
能不能不要开灯
我们的爱跟着
你写的剧本
出现了越来越多的角色
我是你什么人
如果不是情人
是不是不要
再浪费我的人生
你比我更清楚
你对我多好
多温柔多认真
不构成爱我的资格
除非你只看着我
想着我只有我
爱本来就该独一无二
为你伤心多一点少一点
流下的眼泪都一样不值得
世界上那么多人
只有我一个人
能拯救自己的快乐
不要再为你哭了
I like the last part of the lyrics the most. If translated to English, it means :" There are so many people out there in the world. But only I myself can rescue myself from all these despair and find happiness. No more shedding of tears for you."
Not sure if the meaning is right. My Chinese is not that good. Neither is my English. Haha. Ok. Got to go back to work. Update about my work later when I am more free ba. :)
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
4:30 PM
4:30 PM
Monday, March 13, 2006
I am home on a Monday afternoon. Was supposed to start work today but received news from Stanley at the last moment to make it on Tues instead. Turn out that he is damn busy and will only have time for me tomorrow. Seems like I will be the same as him once I start my work. Which is good in a way as my mind tends to wander when I have nothing on my hands.
Just had a busy weekend. Fri was spent rotting in anticipation of the main event on Sat. It was the wedding of Mr Stanley Yeo and his beautiful wife, Yanni. Well, they had actually been married since last year but due to local customs, they had to undergo the traditional chinese wedding dinner. I was the best man for this happy occasion. :) Will try to post the pics up once I get it.
Woke up at 5.45 a.m (remind me of my BMT days) and reached his place at 6.40 a.m. The whole lot of us (Alson, James, Benson, Ah Hee, Ah Ho, Guowei, Padi and of course ME) went charging to Tampines Street 32 to grab the bride. ;)
The easy part was getting there. The hard part was getting in. The bride, as usual had her group of sisters who were determined to make it hard for us to get in. As brothers of the groom, we were made to eat bread which had filling of onions, garlic and my most hated wasabi. Darn. I was the first one to eat (Bestman what) and also the first to taste their drink. Turned out to be bittergourd juice which is my most hated fruit or vegetable (what the hell is it anyway!!??!!) ever. We spent quite an effort haggling over the price to give them for them to open the door for us. They were finally duped into accepting an amount much lower than what Stanley had planned. You should know what to do with the money u had saved up hor, Mr Stanley Yeo. :P
Rushed to Guowei's home to do up a slideshow of the newly weds using photos that were just taken in the morning. The end product was quite ok considering that we are no pros and also the short time that we had to do it. Set everything up at the restuarant before ushering the guests in. The wedding dinner finally started at around 9 (when the invitation had stated clearly that it will start at 7.30!!)
After all the hassles that the couple had went through, it makes me wonder if it is worth the effort. To me, a wedding is something special that I would like to share with my wife and loved ones. No need to raise a big hoo ha over it. Asking friends of your parents and some Tom, Dick and Harry that you hadn't seen in ages simply do not fit in with me. The money and effort spent can be better put to use for a romantic getaway. Places in Europe come to mind. If it was down to me, I would visit places like Venice, Athens, Rome, Barcelona, Prague, London etc. There are just so many places that I can visit with the amount of money being spent on a wedding dinner. What will come out of the dinner? A load of crap. Not saying that the dinner was crap but the only thing that come out after a dinner is just crap. No good memories or whatsoever.
Marriage to me in the first place is something that I only dare to think about. Never thought of doing it yet. See, a divorce will only happen when u are in a marriage. The best way to prevent is not to get marry. Marriage is a huge huge responsibility. Not something that can be decided in a moment of passion. I had always imagine how my future partner will look like. To be honest, never for once had I thought of the appearance. Maybe I would think about it when I was in my teens but now I realized that you can't use appearance to judge who you want to spend the rest of your life with. Character play a big part. She got to be able to understand me and vice versa. Understanding and trust play a huge part in marriage. The most important thing is of course love.
I got to love her so much so that a moment without her by my side is a toture. But something call fate always like to play around with you. The one you love might not have the same feelings for you while someone whom you don't like so much might love u so much that it scare you off. Don't know why I am starting to talk about this topic. Must be coping myself too much in my house.
Anyway, I sincerly wish that Stanley will have an everlasting marriage with his beloved wife. The easy part was getting hitched. The hard part comes only now as in how to maintain a relationship. I think I can't give them advice on this topic. I simply sucks at it. I am always screwing up my own chances. Maybe I am just clueless in love. Maybe I am someone who shouldn't even think about it. I am better off working hard and hoping that someday, someone will just pop up in my life and take my breath away.
Life is not about the amount of breath you take. It is about the amount of times your breath was taken away. Had you found the one who had taken away your breath yet? ;)
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
2:22 PM
2:22 PM
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Was browsing for an Andy Song, 下次不敢 when I chance upon this old song of Andy Lau. Loved it a lot. One of the songs that make me declare that he is my idol. ;) The song is 我和我追逐的梦. Nice song with superb lyrics.
飘流已久在每个港口只能稍作停留
喜乐和哀愁今生不能由我
任风带我停停走走
孤独依旧多希望你能靠在我的胸口
却不愿痴心得到你的温柔
人群之中装作冷漠
泪不敢流让命运牵引着我南北西东
看世间悲欢离合难分难舍
而谁在为我守候
我和我追逐的梦擦肩而过
永远也不能重逢
我和我追逐的梦一再错过
只留下我独自寂寞却不敢回头
Speaking of dreams. I think I disappointed quite a few people today. I had officially quitted from Prudential. I felt bad for those friends who had supported me. I used to dream that I could make in big in the Financial Advisory sector. Sad to say, I don't have the skill nor discipline for it. One thing that make me look back in gladness is that all of them were better off than they were in the past. For their CPF investments, they had made more than the 2.5% interest which CPF pay out. On the average, their returns were in the region of 10+%. They also had better coverage and savings in the pocket. Sorry if I disappointed any of you guys. You guys will be in better hands when my colleagues take over your cases.
This is the song that I am looking for. 下次不敢. The lyrics is meaningful.
绕一个圈又过了一环
犯错以後才後悔会不会太晚
就算认错就算你说
下一次我不敢
失去容易啊回头真难
日子再坏也必须要走完
啊在生活中每一个人
应该有对自己最诚实的那份勇敢
朋友啊虽然哭泣常常让人太难堪
其实眼泪也有温暖
流过泪的你才能慢慢成长
有伤心才会懂得有心欢
啊抓紧时间把你感情的帐单
好好去认认真真一一的清还
为身边每个人
请不要再怠慢
让爱火一再点燃
从今我不想
再听你说
下一次我不敢
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
10:15 PM
10:15 PM
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Visited JB with Benson, Alson, Vincent and Stef last Sat. Well, it should be we visited Stef as she was already staying there. We reached there at around 12 plus and the first place we went to was the Bak Kut Teh stall recommended by Stef. Was thinking of going to try out the go kart there but gave up in the end as the cost was a bit on the high side. There were also a lack of participants. No one was there except us. And only Alson and I were interested in it. Sianzz. Anyway, I already had an experience close to go karting thanks to Stef. She was driving quite fast and in an effort not to lose out to her, my beloved bro, Benson went all out to chase after her. Driving at speed of around 90Km/hr when we are travelling on a small one lane road seems dangerous to me.
Went to a place to play pool(again!!??) indoor basketball and table tennis in the end. It was fun. Benson, Vincent and I had a one on one competition. It had been ages since I last played basketball and it was fun. Should really have more session like this. Played table tennis with Vincent and it was fun as well. Lost to him in the end but hey, I can't possibly beat him at everything. :P Alson accompanied Stef in playing pool. Felt a bit bad for Stef as she must be feeling damn sianz. She was the only lady there and I can't help felt that she was feeling left out by all our conversation and fun. Must make it up to her when I have the chance. Played Winning Eleven with Benson when we returned back to S'pore and I am proude to say that I had finally won him in it. Though it was a lucky win but hey, it is not everyday that I can beat him at it. ;)
Sun was spent visiting the Career Fair at Suntec with Padi and Vincent. Gather more info on the courses that I like and hope to come to a decision soon. Must have a target for me to aim for. Sun was also a good day for my beloved Spurs. We beat Blackburn 3-2 with Robbie Keane scoring a goal which I can only dream of. We are now 5 points clear of ARSE-nal and i am keeping my fingers cross that nothing will goes wrong. Spurs had a tough run in for the end season. I predict us to finish 5th in the end with ARSE-nal just pipping us for the fourth spot. I really hope that I am wrong. If Spurs was to qualify for Champions League, I think I might cry out tears of joy. Been supporting them since 1991 and to be honest, this is the best season I had ever witnessed.
Been watching Naruto on www.youtube.com for the past few weeks. Go and watch it. It is fun and yet exciting. Should be one of the better anime out there.
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
9:06 PM
9:06 PM
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
It is not often that the whole family is unemployed but this is what that is happening in my family. Both my mum and I had joined the legion of unemployed personel in S'pore. Not that I mind that she is unemployed. To be honest, her previous job is taking a huge toll on her and it is a relief to me that she is finally retrenched. She is a typical rat. Will always hang in there no matter how bad things are. Are all people under the horoscope of Rat like that? I am luckier than her as I will be starting on my new work on Mon. I will be working under Stanley and I am looking forward to this new challenge. It will be quite different from what I am doing now or what I had done before. I am confident that I can do well in it.
The decision to leave ISG is a painful one. One that I would never want to go through ever again in my life. I had spent numerous sleepless nights pondering over it. My boss, David was kind and patient to me. He could have just given me the boot when my result is going down and I being totally off in my work. To his credit, he took time off to talk to me. Gave me advice and also made an attractive offer to me. I would have taken it without any doubt if not for the immediate financial needs of my family. There is still so much that I can learn from him. The working enviroment there was simply amazing. My colleagues were great. THEY will be the ones that i will be missing the most. A group of young people striving hard for their dreams. Comrades whom I know I can depend on in time of need. This is the spirit we had in ISG. I love u guys. Finding it strange that I am typing this but my eyes are getting a bit teary when I realize that I won't be around for you guys whenever you guys (Should be gals as most of my comrades are gals) need me. All the best!! I am confident that you gals will do great.
To my Dear Xiaomei, Melinda: Must be more focused. Doing things that you don't like(Cold calling)and yet good at will help you reach your monthly goal. I have absolute confidence that you can do it. Never once had I doubted you. Must be good and listen to Coleen. My help is just a phonecall away.
To my buddy Sue: Sorry for not sticking around for the ride. The road to success might be long but I am sure you will reach there in due time. Though you are younger than me(not in looks k??? :P), you had always given me good advice. For that, I am really grateful. This verse go out to you. "The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?"
To Vincent: Thank you for your advice and help. Sorry if I had disappoint you in anyway. I am really sorry for all the shit I had brought to you.
To Alson: Thanks for bringing me to ISG. It was worth the ride. All the best to your new tentureship as team leader. I am sure you will do well.
To Charisse, My mahjong kaki cum hair stylist: I will be missing your sunny smile and sarcasm. No matter what, you still must join me for mahjong and also jio me out for sports activities k?
To Coleen: All the best to you for you deserve nothing but the best. The sky is the limit for you. Trust me when I say that you can reach the stars if you want to. You are already as smart and even maybe smarter than me. :)
To be honest, I am someone who hate making changes. Though I know that change is a constant.It just make me feel so uneasy. Decision making. Seems like I am like someone though I had always denied it in front of her. I hate making decision. But making decision would help you in your personal development. All mature people need to make decision. You don't see kids making decision. Their parents will do it for them. But for people who are mature or maturing, you will need to make them whether you like it or not. Will update you guys once I start my new job. Wish me all the best!! :)
Baby不要再哭泣 这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口 但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心好好欣赏你的美
幸福搭配悲伤 同时在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回 还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走去跟随
每一次和你分开 深深地被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔 痛苦难以释怀
每一次和你分开 每一次Kiss You Goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白
幸福搭配悲芊 同时在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回 但欠你的我不能给
我才明白爱最真实的滋味
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
12:02 AM
12:02 AM
