Life is a game of waiting.. Waiting for the right ride to take us off to the sunset

Saturday, October 27, 2007

A quick one here. I am inside Terminal 2 now and flying off in less than 1 hour. Just had a nice lunch with Mum and Aunt at Crystal Jade Kitchen. To be honest, I am feeling a bit lost now.

Instead of having friends and brothers that I could depend on for my previous trip, I find myself among people that I am seeing for the first time now. I got to admire my colleagues and friends who had came to S'pore alone. Leaving their loved ones and a place which they had grown accustomed to for the past 10 odd years.

Though I will only be away for less than 3 weeks, I am already feeling quite uneasy about it. Leaving familarity to a place where I don't have much friends around me. Not knowing what will happen seems to be quite a scary thing now.

I think I can handle being alone in a strange land. I just hope to get this thing done and over with. Though part of me still feel that this exercise is useless, I will still do my very best. No point going over there to pout my lips.

I will see you guys soon. :)

PS: Terminal 2 seems to be more beautiful compare to my last visit here. Must go on a proper tour when I have the time.

You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
1:45 PM

This should be the last post before I am back from Wallaby. This mean a good 2 weeks plus before you guys will hear from me again.

First, I got to say a big thank you to Guowei, Adlin, Edward and Hee for accompanying me for a last night out at Timbre. The band was great as usual and so were my companions. We chatted about everything and I was glad for this final sending off before my training in Down Under.

Secondly, I would like to thank my Mum for being so supportive of me. I know she don't like me to be away for so long. To be honest, my feelings are the same as her. But like what Kennedy had said in his famous speech; Ask not what your country can do for you. Ask yourself what you can do for your country. Let's just hope that there won't be another overseas training for me. I am the only child and I feel really bad to leave my mum behind alone for close to 3 weeks.

Thirdly, a big thank you to Ah Ho for loaning me your BIG haversack ( a great help for my books and stuff) and Guowei for your field pack and helmet. Without these, I wouldn't be able to board the flight tomorrow.

Fourth, a big thank you to Edward and my fellow mates back in my company. Endure for a while. I will be back to help out in the battle for success soon. Edward, please take good care of my DS and also my Hamster in the DS. Feeding and cleaning it daily is a MUST!

Fifth, I would like to thank you. I know you would be reading this. Thanks for agreeing to call my mum for me if I can't get to use the public phone and sending a sms is my only means of getting my status to the outside world. Thanks for patiently jotting down the relevant numbers and thanks for being such a great friend. Really appreciate it. :)

Lastly, but not the least, a BIG thank you to colleagues and friends who had wished me well for the trip. I am sorry if I can't meet some of you for dinner. Appreciate the thought and like what I had always said; 兄弟间，无需做太多，心照不宣。

A packed Timbre as usual. The beer was quite cheap at $40 per bucket of 5 Heineken. The lead singer is also the same guy who sang 身外物 on the sound track of 881.

Rich woman and Rich Man.

Poor guy and Poor boy.

I know I look very 娘 here. Thanks to the Rich woman who suggested this pose. She is rich. So I LL.

Till I am back, my friends. :)

I would really like to end this on a happy note. But after hearing what Adlin had told me, I think it is time I make a stance. We should just move on. We know that things can't be like how it used to be. Things broken just can't be the same no matter how hard we try to pretend. If you got any unhappiness, please direct it to me. My friends play an important role in my life. Defaming them for things that they did not do and causing them hurt in the process is equally hurtful to me.

We should just look forward. Like what I had shared with Joan. We shall not think of things that had happened or might not happen. For we can't change the past or predict the unknown. I want to move on. I want you guys to move on. I want myself to be happy. My friends to be happy. And for you guys to be happy. Hands on my heart. This is the truth.

You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
2:31 AM

Friday, October 26, 2007

Just watched this show on Chinese Star Movies this afternoon. Really brought back the memories and also a sobering fact that I am getting old.

Theme song of the show which was a hit among gals back then. I think Adlin should like it ba. Just too bad you cannot be consider a small girl anymore. :P

The scene which make most of the female viewers weep.

You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
2:56 PM

Thanks for all the help. Enjoy the video below. ;)

You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
2:52 PM

A song I downloaded from Ed recently. Though it is an old song, just wanted to share it with you guys. Loved the lyrics.

"That I Would Be Good"

that I would be good even if I did nothing
that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that I would be great if I was no longer queen
that I would be grand if I was not all knowing

that I would be loved even when I numb myself
that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when I was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy

that I would be good even if I lost sanity
that I would be good
whether with or without you

One of my favorite movies of all time.

You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
1:02 AM

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Blogging at this time seems strange to me. Took today off as I want to have a good break before going for my so called "holiday" in Australia. Woke up at around 10 this morning. I didn't sleep much also. Reason being that I went to sleep only at around 2 plus in the morning.

Had went to the Thai disco with Ed and Guowei after a heavy steamboat dinner. Never knew that there was a place like that there. Ha. The band was quite ok thought I don't really understand what they were singing. Singha beer was quite a steal at $32 for 2 jugs during happy hour. One thing I got to admit was that all the female singers and dancers in the band got an amazing figure. Not sure what they took for meals but all of them got a super slim tummy. Make me feel bad over my 3 months pregnancy tummy.

Upload some photos that I had taken recently.

Dinner at Sakae Teppanyaki with Adlin and Diana. The beef was great!

Big big oyster of Adlin. It ended up in my tummy as she don't take oysters. Haha. :)

Took this in a bus. If you looked carefully, the birds are actually playing around in the water.

One of the projects I was working on. Took this at around 8 plus in the night and my hands aching after opening and closing around 400 doors.

Mcdonald drive-through seems to be the only choice when you are driving around, rushing to sites and no time for a proper meal.

You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
3:08 PM

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Well, it's me again. 2nd post for the week. When did this last happened? Ha. A cup of nice earl grey tea also seems to give me the motivation to blog.

A lot of my friends like to call me a Mummy Boy. Reasons being that my mum would always call and check if I am ok (Yes. I am 27 now), prepare my breakfast for me and always nagging me on what to do and not to do in front of others. I, for my part obey most of her instructions.

Not trying to diffuse the above fact. But I am doing some thinking here and felt that they might not know the full reason behind all these. I am sure most of you know that I came from a single family by now.

One of the most clear memories that I had of my childhood was my mum drinking and smoking alone in the living room. She had just put me to bed and thought that I was sound asleep. I had not and took a peek to see what she was doing.

And there she was. Weeping alone with tears streaming down her face. I was feeling lost then. For I was too young to fathom why she was weeping. All I knew then was that I must make sure that she doesn't do this again in the future.

It was only when I am older that I realize that it must have been a combination of loneliness, stress of bringing up a child alone and the heartache of betrayal by your husband. This also explained the reason for my mother being so close to me.

She didn't had the luxury of having a loving husband by her side through the years. Neither did she had a lot of close friends as she had lost contact with most of them due to her time being taken away by me. Yes. The same person who is being called a Mummy Boy.

She could have quite a substantial sum of savings at the rate she was working from then till now. She might have found a new guy in her life. A new guy who can walk with her down a path we call life. She might even be able to travel aboard, volunteering her time for the needy or simply taking life easy.

All the above make me felt that I was a stepping stone in her life. All the above spur me on to do all I can for her. Not sure if people realize this. Life as a child growing up in a single family is really different from a complete family. Definitely not trying to gain sympathy here but I am willing to be called a mummy boy. To be honest, I am not even slightly bother by it. I am sure you guys know the reason by now. That is if you had the effort to read up to here. ;)

Super Mum!!!

You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
12:26 AM

Monday, October 22, 2007

What's wrong, what's getting you down?
Is it something I might have said?
You're walking around
With your head to the ground
And your eyes are watery red

I know you've been through tough times
Kicked around, thrown to the ground
But you've always been the strong one
So don't tell me that nobody gets you'
Cause I'm standing in your corner
Knocking at your door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'Cause it hurts me to see you this way

I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter, my friend

You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
11:03 PM

Updates!! Just in case you do not know from my MSN nick or Facebook, I will be leaving for Australia on this Sat for Ex Wallaby 2007. My 2nd time there and No. It's not a holiday trip. For people who think of it this way, they are either dumb or never been there before.

No beds, lockers, PCs, Tv, newspaper and normal bathrooms. I will be lost from Civilization. Just like that hit drama. Lost. I am going to miss surfing my Facebook daily (I am hooked on it!!), playing DOTA, cheap and nice local food (SGD 500 = AUD 373 and the worse part is all that is available are hotdogs, burgers and french fries), relaxing in my bed with a good book (suffering on a safari bed inside a freaking big tent in the middle of a desert, my friends, my mum and simply being in touch with civilization.

But I try not to be too pessimistic here. I had came up with a list of good things that I can get out of this shit hole

1) I will hopefully lose weight and flatten my 3 months pregnancy tummy when I am back. The hot weather and tough training program should be able to do that. For my female friends who swear by slimming pills and Marie France, I recommend an overseas exercise organized by the SAF. You get pay for losing weight!!

2) I will have time to finish the pile of books that I had been buying but had no time to read. The sun rise at freaking 5 a.m (total daylight by 6 am local time, 4 am S'pore time) and set at 5 p.m. With no tv to watch, no training program after 6 p.m and no pc to play around with, your only companion will be a book. For me, it will be 4 books.

3) I will have the chance to enjoy cheap and good beer!! I know this will kinda cancel out point 1 but with coke at a price of AUD 2.20 and beer at a price of AUD 1.40, I think the choice is pretty obvious. You will hate plain water after 3 days as you will have too much to drink during the daytime due to the extreme weather.

4) A nice tan. This is a certainty.

5) A chance to catch up with myself. Yes. Not with friends but with myself. Life had been moving at a relentless pace. Being alone with so much free time on my hand will make it a good chance for me to look back on 2007 and what I had missed out and achieved so far.

Try not to miss me too much when I am not around. Ha. I doubt anyone will feel so ba. But I am sure going to miss all of you.

You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
11:19 AM

Sunday, October 07, 2007

To be honest, not quite sure what I want to pen down here. Time seems to have pick up speed in my life. Making everyday seems so short. Not sure if it is work or just a resignation to life as it is. Zooming past in a blink and making it hard for people to catch their breath and reorganize their own footstep.

Been spending quite a bit lately. Bought a new handphone lately and is loving it to pieces. The model is Samsung i600. I am using it to plan my schedule, surf the net and check my mail when I am waiting for friends ( etc: Mr Low Quek Wee) and a neat camera which I used to take snapshot of friends and things around me.

Nintendo DS Lite was another expensive item I bought in the past month. Just in case that you guys might think that I strike lottery or something, I had not. This set was an used one I got from Chin Hui. It happened that I was hoping to have enough money to buy a DS and he came up with the suggestion of selling his used one to me. He was sharing this unit with his gf and want to change to a pink one for her sake. How can I reject such a sweet hearted guy request? Anyway, the DS had bought me many delight at home and on the road home or work. My only complain is that I never seem to have enough time to play it. As I am writing, it had been close to 2 weeks since I got to Pokemon Diamond. Haizzz..

Some of the pictures I took with my handphone.

Delicious Cesar Salad at Hilton Hotel Cafe

Was working on a project in Bukit Timah. Still wondering why the need for 2 toilet bowls here. Do let me know if you know the reason.

Nice pond in the project I am working on now. Btw, the owner is FREAKING Rich.

My working table. Damn Messy Haha

The result of 4 hungry guys having a steamboat dinner after a week of hard work.

Cute baby of Jiabao. Btw, that's my DS he was playing with.

Brothers since 1986.

Well, I got to go now. Need to prepare for a wedding dinner later on. My 2nd in a row this month. Talk about coincidence. I think my nickname for this month will be Poor Man. ;)

You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
4:44 PM