Thursday, March 22, 2007
Darn.. It had been a long while since I am insomnia. Don't know if it was the coffee in the afternoon or the weird dream that I had just now. I was asleep for a total of 15 minutes. Tried playing a game of Dota, reading and even counting sheep but here I am. Trying to blog myself to sleep.
Been busy with work lately (I know this is boring but I really am) to really write a proper post in my blog. Don't know why but lately a lot of my friends, my relatives and my mum's friends been asking me why am I still single at this age.
For my friends who are guys, the first question would always be: "Don't you have the urge to find someone". Well, guys being guys. The urge of course is sexual urge. :P Well, I am not trying to act noble here but I am looking for a companion here. Not a sex partner. If I was, I am quite sure that I will have plenty of choices in Geylang.
My relatives question would be: "Don't you find it strange at this age that you are still single?". Well, thanks for your concern but don't you even find it even stranger that I am still as broke as before and had nothing worthy to my name. I can't even sell myself to me. How do you think I can convince anyone out there that this is an investment worth investing in?
My mum's friends being those typical aunty, their first response when they hear that I am still single is: "Boy, don't worry. Aunty will sure introduce girls to you. You give me your photo and aunty will do the rest." Thanks a lot for the help but I am still not used to having people selling me in this manner.
All these had left me wondering why am I still single now. To be honest, I had never really thought about it though I had been single for close to 5 years now. Discounting those previous failed attempts and one seriously screw up attempt by me, I had mostly been happy with my current status.
Seeing my friends in relationship that is quite screw up played a huge part in this thinking of mine. Some are together because they felt that since that they had been together for so long, it will be hard for them to adjust to another person in their life (U call that a reason????). Some are together for the sake of being together due to a mistake( I would call it a child) while others are not even sure if they can be considered as having a relationship with the other party (CHAMPION!!!).
The failed marriage between my own parents make me even think harder about starting a new relationship. I find it so hard to trust someone now. New friends I can still trust but if we are to bring this to another level, a higher degree of trust is needed and sad to say, this is something that I can't give now.
I had once trusted someone a lot and all I can said is that, I felt that it had not been returned in kind. I felt like an idiot at times and though the pain is slowly going away, the scars are still there. Well, I had always tell myself this. Time is the best medication for all kind of pain. I am sure that sooner or later, I would not be needing any kind of medication. In the meantime, thanks to those who had asked me the above question. I think I am quite happy with what I had now. My mum, friends, work and hopefully, soon to be part time student life. Will update you guys more on this in another time.
Now, PLEASE LET ME SLEEP!!! TONS OF WORK ARE WAITING FOR ME TOMORROW!!!!!
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
2:01 AM
2:01 AM
Thursday, March 15, 2007
I love POP!!! Retro music rules.. Haha
Back into love - From Music and Lyrics
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need `em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
Don't write me off - Music and Lyrics
It's never been easy for me
To find words to go along with a melody
But this time there's actually something on my mind
So please forgive these few brief awkward lines
Since I met you my whole life has changed
It's not just my furniture you've re-arranged
I was living in the past
But somehow you've brought me back
and I haven't felt like this since before Frankie said relax
and now I know based on my track record
I might not seem like the safest bet
All I'm asking you is
Don't write me off just yet
For years I've been telling myself the same old story
That I'm happy to live off my so called former glories
but you've given me a reason
to take another chance
now I need you despite the fact
that you've killed all my plants
And now I know
I've already blown more chances
than anyone should ever get
all I'm asking you is
don't write me off just yet
don't write me off just yet
My favorite song in the whole movie. The lyrics said it all.
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
10:39 PM
10:39 PM
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Good time, Bad time, time still move on.
生命若不是现在，那时何时？？
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
11:52 PM
11:52 PM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Below are some films that I had watched recently and drama serials that I am currently watching.
The drama serial I am currently watching now. Problem is, I am currently being drown out by my work that I never really had the opportunity to lie down and watch one whole disc at one go. I think I am at episode 12 or 13 now. Quite a nice show. If only I got more time on my hands to watch it.
A perfect date movie if you have a date. Well, I didn't have one so I got 3 to watch it with me. Ha. Thanks to Guowei, Ah Ho and Ee Wei, I was able to catch this wonderfully sweet romantic comedy when we were in JB. The songs featured in the film are nice and catchy. I am planning to get my hands on their sound track. Do watch it if you have a date. I think gals will absolutely love this show.
One of the best movies on war that I had ever watched. A film that should be shown to all aspiring terrorist or war mongers out there. The director painted a stark image of the war to us through the film. No one win in a war. The Americans might have won WWII at the end of the day but did at what cost? The Japanese had been painted as evil and cold blooded but this film showed that they are humans after all. They felt despair when they knew that they will never see their family again. They died defending a cause. Problem is that is it really worth a cause to fight for? If I was God or have a wish that I can make. That will definitely to stop all fighting in this war. For no one is a winner at the end of the day. We all end up as loser.
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
11:32 PM
11:32 PM
Thursday, March 08, 2007
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wIepWY2oUJk
我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤
小小的手掌厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
8:32 PM
8:32 PM
