Well, tonight is kinda of strange for me. Getting home at 10.30. This is a rarity now. Anyway, after spending about 2 hrs surfing the net(playing friendster, how no life can I get??) and chatting with frens, I think it is time to update my blog. Though I am not sure if anyone actually bother to check it out at the first place?? ;) The day didn't started well for me. Was kinda lectured by my manager about my ill discipline(not being punctual for work) and poor sales for two months running. Actually I know that she meant good for me. But I just find it hard to stay focus. I just hate to conform to rules. It was the same when I was in Secondary school. I remember that I had failed for three consecutive years. It was until in Sec 4 that I had a great form teacher. Her name is Miss Wong. She actually took the efforts to talk to me and asked me what were actually my problems. She managed to convince me that I can study and set me back on track. I think I need some sort of mentor for me now. To remind me if I am straying away from my goal or just slacking off which I tends to do at times. :( I think no matter at what stages of life we are in, we still need friends or our elders to support us and guide us. There is a saying is chinese. If you guys can interpret it; "The salt I had tasted is more than the rice you had eaten"

Anyway, I am going to add a counter for my blog soon. Also going to add one more comment column just in case you guys got any comments. I will be needing Benson help for it. He is a great friend of mine. Always willing to offer people his help.

Do you guys believe in horoscope?? As in your character is closely related to your horoscope?? It is kinda amazing when I found out that the birthday of one of my colleague is the same as my ex gf. Anyway, from what I observed from her and my colleague(both of them are Virgos), both of them are very detailed about their work. Particular about small details and perfectionist. Cry easily and is an emotional fellow. Correct me if I am wrong. This is the impression I had of Virgo. :) I not saying that I hate them but sometimes I really can't stand their need for everything to be perfect. But life is kinda strange and ironic. Sometimes, Cupid will just match you up with that someone whose personality is the type you hated. :)

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Happy Birthday!!! Tomorrow is the 24th birthday of Guowei, one of my best friends or should I said brothers. I first knew this guy when I was in NCC(yes, NCC was one of my ECA in sec school). That was like 1993? Time really flies man. I had known this guy for over 10 years now. This is what I could call a brother for all seasons. I could never recall once that he had fail to help me or accompany me when I asked him to. He was always by my side in regardless of me being down or up. The some bad points of him is that he is damn wishy-washy, blur, naive at times and shops like a lady. He could walk into a store and spent 30 mins just to decide which type of clothes he want, 20 mins to decide the color and 10 mins to decide the size. Shopping with him is a damn f#$%&*g chore. There was once when he lost our NCC fund and we got to fork out another $10 more for the fund. $10 at those days were huge for me man. Damn it!! He is also a bit of a casanorva when he was in secondary school man. He got a total of 3 gfs I think when he was in secondary school. But I am glad that he had found one that suit him now. I really hope the best for u and Xiaoyu man.

Talking about him and Xiaoyu makes me reflect on the decisions and choices we had made in life. How great it was if we can be blessed with the gift of foresight rather than having to bear with the trouble of having a hindsight of things that we had done. I am sure that sometime in life, there are tough decisions to be made. Some decision may go right for us but some might not. How do we cope with the wrong ones? I been through hell when I did make a wrong decision in the past. That's why I really hope that no one will ever have to go through this pain again. Friend, if u are reading this, I really wish the best for u. Just remember that friends around u will always be there to act as a cushion for u to soften the blow.

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Well, this hasn't been a good week for me. It should have been but as we all knew, someone up there always like to create surprises for us. My work week had been horrific to say the least. Everything that can go wrong had went wrong. All these problems are driving me nuts. I can't sleep well at night, think about it when I am awake and even when I am in the toilet doung my business I am thinking about it. I deeply felt that all these wouldn't had happen if people are more considerate and not back out at the last moment. I hate being played out but I just been played out this week. Makes me feel real down. Sometimes, I really wonder what I am working so hard for?? Most people will say that it is for the money but I rather think that it is for a dream. I also wanted to be financially independent, my mum to retire(she is 56 for GOD sake) and also to do something that I really want to without worrying about whee the next buck is going to come from. Things like backpacking, volunteering to charity, photography and lots of other things. I know all along that the process of getting there is hard. Obstacles that don't break us will only make us stronger. I am a firm believer in that. I am just keeping my fingers crossed that I won't fall to any obstacles. The temptation to just take the easy way out is great.

On a personal side, I am saddend by things happening a friend of mine. I wouldn't say it is who as the person asked me to keep her secrets. Come to think of it, I would rather it not be said to me as human being human always have a tendency not to be able to keep secrets. Just think of Pandora. It was lucky that for all the troubles she released, she also gave us hope. Hope is a great thing. Cause not matter how worse you think the thing had become. there is still hope that it will turn for the better. I also hope this for my friend. Relationship to me is like a double-edged knife. When you use it to your advantage, life become easier for you. But it might also hurts u, makes you bleeds when it is used in the wrong way. People who seems to be very in love or happy might not really feel that way deep in their heart. Sometimes, to act strong you would really have to wear a mask.Why the need to wear a mask?? Well, some just don't want their loved ones and friends to worry about them but for some it is the matter of pride. We just can't admit to others that we do need help and deep in our heart we do feel hurt and need an arms in waiting for us. What we can do is to cry or ponder about it when we ae all alone. Some even take more drastic steps like drinking or other forms of vice to immune themselves. Keeping ourselves busy, trying to act happy or all sort of matters to disguise the fact that we are hurt, troubled and need time and help. I am really hoping that my friend will be stronger after this. I not sure if my friend will be reading this. I really wish the best for you. There is always hope in face of so much troubles.

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Great. I was just complaining earlier in the night to my friends that I do not have time to do the stuff I like. Such as reading, writing my blog or just simply lazing around. Now, this is what I call retribution. I think it must be a combination of sleeping too much in the day(slept for 11 hrs) and drinking Earl Grey Tea at 10 p.m. Anyway, the Earl Grey Tea was nice. Coffee Club just serve the best Early Grey Tea in town. Anyway, I am a bit piss now that I still can't sleep at this kind of unholy hours. Anyway, got any idea how Earl Grey Tea was named Earl Grey tea? I got the answer for you. Thanks to Google, my favourite search engine.

Charles Grey, 2nd Earl Grey, (March 13, 1764 - July 17, 1845). British statesman and Prime Minister. Known as Charles Grey until 1806, and then as Viscount Howick from 1806 to 1807. Earl Grey tea is named after Grey. He is commemorated by a monument, known as Grey’s Monument in the centre of Newcastle-upon-Tyne. Also called simply "Monument", it consists of a statue of the Earl sitting atop at 41 m high column. The monument lends its name to a station on the Tyne and Wear Metro located directly underneath.

This can show u how bored I am now. I am hungry yet can't cook to eat(on a diet), got a roadshow tomorrow and yet can't get to sleep. Anyway, the EPL had started. This will be the time when ur bf or guy friends will be flocking to the pubs on weekends to get their dose of the best thing that had ever happened to men. Soccer. I once heard my female friends asking me what is so fasinacting about soccer?? Well, I had been asking myself the same question to why women find shopping such an enjoyable task?? Well, my answer will be the same as theirs. :) I mean being able to watch ur fav team live(mine is Tottenham Hotspurs for all those who don't know) and seeing them get the win right in front of u. Man, nothing can beats this feeling. :)

Anyway, just to give an update of the events that had been happening to me. Well, last week was work, work and more work. I was busy as usual. Beginning to hate this feeling. I mean not being able to spend time with my mum, friends and my own life. This is a sucky feeling. All I can hope for is that my hard work will be rewarded come end of the day. I will be making sure it do. Otherwise , it won't be worth my effort. Talking about effort, Olympics is here again. I mean this is the single event in the world that can summarize what I had always believe in. Work hard and you shall be rewarded. I mean we will be only looking at the glorious moments of the winners but were we there to witness the extruciating work being put in by them to acheive their victory??

Anyway, can anyone please teach me how to approach a girl u admire and at the same time not to give her the impression that u are a pervert for taking the first move. Well, I haven't got this feeling for quite a while but I think there is that someone that might be more important than all the other stuff I am doing now to me. Problem is I am shy by nature(I know my colleagues should they be reading will be laughing their heads off) and I really got not much experience in this sort of affairs. It is that special something in her. I mean I still can remember the words she had said to me. Bye, Thanks and a slight nod of the head. I think I am really useless at times. I mean all my colleagues around me had said more words to her than me. I am always tongue-tied when I see her. For all I think, she might not even know there is a guy call Christopher Sim in the office. ;( I am really hopeless. Do drop me a comment if U had this kind of feeling and how u cope with it. Well, I think I will just go and watch Olympic soccer now. Please let me sleep by 4. I need to wake up by 9 a.m tomorrow. And I think my work won't end until 10+. ;(

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Something damn cock happened to me last night. As I made my way home from City Hall after watching the Fireworks with my friends(the crowd at the area at that time is frightening), I was so glad that I managed to catch the last train home. Even whenI missed the last bus in the process, I was still glad to walk home as I knew I had saved money by not taking a midnight cab. But no way was I going to have it easy. ;( After walking for around 10 mins, sweating like a pig and legs aching. It was to my disbelief that I forgot to bring out my house keys. Can U imagine? Walking all the way home only to realize that your f%^$*&g house keys are just separted from u by a F%^&*$G door!!! No words can describle how I felt then. I really was thinking of knocking the door down or killing myself for being so forgetful. Think I had been hanging around t much with Joey. Darn. Anyway, got to take a midnight cab(kinda stupid and funny when I was trying my best not to do that) To cut a story short, I reached my mum working place to get the keys(not before being first scolded by her) and then reached home at 1+. Total cost of my stupidity is $18.00. ;( The only thing that cheered me up was that I managed to catch Duplex before I sleep. It is a comedy but not like those Adam Sandler kind. It is not slapstick humour. It is witty and Ben Stiller is great in it. I would give it a 3.5 upon 5.

Now back to the main topic. Happy 39th Birthday Singapore!!! Words can't describle how proud I feel to be a S'porean. I mean to progress from a fishing village to a developed nation in just 39 years is nothing short of a miracle. It was just like Greece winning the European Cup. Totally unexpected in those days. All the best to Mr Goh who can finally take the break he fully deserved. I been to some countries and I can tell u that nothing beats coming home and seeing all the trees along ECP while u are on the way home. Though there are still some rules and regulations in S'pore which cheeses me off(like no sex and the city vcd where in Bangkok u could get them anywhere), things are turning for the better. I really can't understand why S'poreans themselves are slamming S'pore. Though costs of living are high, i am willing to pay for it as I know assured that I would be having a high standard of living here. This is the place I grew up on. All my friends and loved ones are here. My favourite food are also here. ;) U got to pay a price to get the prize. This is one of my manager favourite slang. I totally agreed with him on that. I mean if everyone just want the easy way out, who is going to do all the work? The main reason why S'pore is able to prosper and progress is due to the fact that we are united as a people. I mean teamwork to me is one of the most important thing of all. No one can do everything by himself. Team effort is one of the most underrated value. Greece won the European Cup due to their great teamwork. So did S'pore. So to all my fellow S'poreans out there. Happy National Day and continue working hard to make S'pore the best home for all of us. Cheers..

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An article in this month Cleo magazine caught my mind. The topic was, would a lady still love a guy even if he earns less than him?? Surprise surprise. The poll results are even. But how true can this be? I mean if a gal don't mind her other half being not as financially successful as her, would her other half have the same thoughts too?? A guy got his own pride. High chance is that we will feel that we are kinda inferior if our paycheck doesn't match up with our other half. For me the first thing I would look for in my other half is not how much she earns(if she earns more than me of course I be happy for her ;) ), how pretty she is(Ppl grows old), or how her figure is. It is that special feeling I call chemistry. If you feel that you would really do something for her no matter how troublesome it is, think of her instinctively when u see something great, I mean the examples are endless but I am quite sure what u guys know what I meant by. But I believe that they are really gals that don't mind if their other half earns less than them. I mean they might be in the minority but I am sure of their exsitence.

This brings me to one of my all time favourite movie. Jerry Maguire. Renee Zwellger character in the movie(i forgot her name) when asked by her aunt(who despise him as he was a bankrupt) what makes her so in love with Jerry Maguire(Tom Cruise), her reply goes like this. "I love him for the man he is. I love him for the man he wants to be. I love him for the man he is trying to be. I love him. I just love him. I love him." To me this is the answer I would love to hear from my other half shall one day I meet her and ask her the same question. I mean love is a beautiful thing. If it is being tied down by others opinion of your other half, how much he or she earns or how he or she will look by your side, it isn't love. All you need is love. I got to admit I am a slight romantic at heart(All Cancerians are) which I think might kinda explain for my blog today. Anyway, gotta go finish my The Hulk movie. I been watching it for near to 2 weeks and I still can't finish it. Thanks to my tight work schedule. See ya all.

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The time now is so f*&^%^g late and I am still awake.. Had a cappucino just now. And the kick only came in at 2+ Damn it. How suay can I get. Tomorrow got a soccer game at 10 a.m. An appointment at 3. Work again in the evening. :( I going mad. Please let me sleep. Please.. I am real tired. No more cappucino at night for me again!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, it is always during this kind of insomia night that u tend to think a lot about things. U know. Things that u wish it is true but u know that it is going to be hard to be true. Like being very rich. I think i am a bit obessed with money at times and I kindahate myself for that. I mean in the movie, The Wall Street. Micheal Douglas had said that Greed is good. Well, I got to agree with him on this. I mean greed can be a form of motivation at times. I mean, if u dun have the greed or hunger for that something, how are u going to get ur brains cracking and your ass working to get it?? No $$ will ever fly down from the sky. I am sure this had been tested and proven after about 2000 years of human exsitence. To those who had been having it easy all this times. I would say that U are one hell of a lucky soul. Reading the news everyday make me feel that sometimes this world is really dark at times. People killing people just because they dun pray to the same god or even worse, same skin color. The rich getting richer and the poor getting poorer. Sometimes, I wonder if the money of all the rich people could be spilt up and spread to the poor, this world will be a better place. But can this be true? I doubt so.

I mean, rather then giving them a fish. We should teach them how to fish. Like planning for their own finances. Living within the own means. Giving them the best education. This is the way to help them break the poverty cycle. And make them greedy. Cause if they are just contented with three meals a day, enough money for the next day, then I said their future are more or less gone. Greed is not the root of all evil. Being content with what you have on your plate is. Imagine if Senior Minister Lee Kuan Yew was just contented with us being a factory for the western countries, doing those cheap labour work, being the lazy fish village that we used to be, would you be here reading my blog and me doing all this blogging here?? Singapore would never be a world class city. So my friends, let us all get greedy and work hard for the things that we just dare to dream of but don't dare to think of.

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Had a miserable night after blogging on Sat. I was hit by one of the worst bout of gastric cramps in my life. the worst part was that it happened mid way through my sleep. I was awaken by pain and immediately I went to take hot milo. It used to help but in this case, NO. I took panadol and finally, a white syrup that leave a damn disgusting taste on the tongue. I finally got to sleep at around 5. Damn. Life can't be worse than that pain. The worst thing was that I got roadshow the next day at Funan. And my appointment was set there. Talk abt it doesn't rain but pours. Anyway, the appointment went well(Thank God) but the pain still won't subside. In the end I got to take cab back together with Aik Guang. Sianzz

Talking about the cramp, I really got to take my hats off to the female species of our kind. I mean I went through 2 days of cramp and I nearly went nuts. Some of my female colleagues told me that when they went through their period, the cramp is there for 6 or 7 days. Wow. Talk about retribution. ;P And they never done anything wrong in the first place. Darn. So to all gals who are reading this, U have my respect for this. Just don't talk to me about your shopping experiences. I mean just tell me 3 great things that U can get from shopping. To me, I shop when I have something in mind to buy. Not as a favourite pasttime. I rather eat, sleep, read or play games. But shop... Let's just say that I would only do it unwillingly. :P

Just to update those ppl who are wondering whether I am still having those cramps, I am fine now but still feeling a bit uneasy around the gastric area. Gatric pains sucks. If I can turn back the clock, I wouldn't have skiped meals when I was young due to soccer or Tv. Regrets. Everyone have them. But how nice it will be if we have a time machine to send us back to the past. I am sure all of us have regrets. Come to think of it, had u tried ur best to reduce the regrets U might have down to the minimum?? As in follow your dreams, doing what ur heart tell u to and never compromising in your belief. I really hope everyone will be able to hit their dreams and hold on to their beliefs. I am trying to do that and I know it ain't going to be an easy ride. All the best my friends.. Peace..

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Was at Baraclava again last night for the birthday celebration of Grace. She is my colleague and a very nice lady too. Anyway, when I reached there, she was already quite high. Some of my colleagues were also feeling a bit high and I was the only sober guy standing there with no drinks left for me. This was until an unlikely hero steps up to buy us a round of drinks. He is none other than my manager, Kyle. It was totally unlike him as I really can't recall when he ever treated me something ever since I joined the agency. So as a form of thank you gesture to him. I began to finish the drinks as fast as possible. :P Anyway, the band that night was great. Sang a great set and even manage to give us an encore before leaving the stage. The last song they sang was also my Favourite. It was My Immortal by Evanescence. Ended up sending my dear friend Joey Chan back. She was lost in her own world. ;)

Work today was a spoiler. I just couldn't get into the mood for work. Due to tiredness and a bit of hangover(I did drank a lot). Anyway met up with Benson and Guowei for dinner together with Alson who was working with me. Ended up paying $16 each for the meal. It may sounds unbelieveable but all we had was just Zhi Cha. Though the food was nice, the price is really a bit too steep. Damn. Overblow my budget again.

And now here I am listening to my mp3 and typing this. Was watching WWE just now but kinda boring. Anyway, I am just now not in the mood to do anything. i am lucky to be still able to blog now as my PC die on me last night. Manage to self repair it thanks to advice from Guowei. He is a great chap. Can sense that he was tired and yet he still willingly join us up for dinner. And the best part was he had already had dinner. This was what I meant by that I had a great bunch of friends. :) Glad to know every single one of them. Well, I think that all for tonight. Nitezzz

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The tears come streaming down your face when you lose something you can't replace. When you love some one but it goes to waste, could it be worse? Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you

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