Thursday, March 22, 2007
Darn.. It had been a long while since I am insomnia. Don't know if it was the coffee in the afternoon or the weird dream that I had just now. I was asleep for a total of 15 minutes. Tried playing a game of Dota, reading and even counting sheep but here I am. Trying to blog myself to sleep.
Been busy with work lately (I know this is boring but I really am) to really write a proper post in my blog. Don't know why but lately a lot of my friends, my relatives and my mum's friends been asking me why am I still single at this age.
For my friends who are guys, the first question would always be: "Don't you have the urge to find someone". Well, guys being guys. The urge of course is sexual urge. :P Well, I am not trying to act noble here but I am looking for a companion here. Not a sex partner. If I was, I am quite sure that I will have plenty of choices in Geylang.
My relatives question would be: "Don't you find it strange at this age that you are still single?". Well, thanks for your concern but don't you even find it even stranger that I am still as broke as before and had nothing worthy to my name. I can't even sell myself to me. How do you think I can convince anyone out there that this is an investment worth investing in?
My mum's friends being those typical aunty, their first response when they hear that I am still single is: "Boy, don't worry. Aunty will sure introduce girls to you. You give me your photo and aunty will do the rest." Thanks a lot for the help but I am still not used to having people selling me in this manner.
All these had left me wondering why am I still single now. To be honest, I had never really thought about it though I had been single for close to 5 years now. Discounting those previous failed attempts and one seriously screw up attempt by me, I had mostly been happy with my current status.
Seeing my friends in relationship that is quite screw up played a huge part in this thinking of mine. Some are together because they felt that since that they had been together for so long, it will be hard for them to adjust to another person in their life (U call that a reason????). Some are together for the sake of being together due to a mistake( I would call it a child) while others are not even sure if they can be considered as having a relationship with the other party (CHAMPION!!!).
The failed marriage between my own parents make me even think harder about starting a new relationship. I find it so hard to trust someone now. New friends I can still trust but if we are to bring this to another level, a higher degree of trust is needed and sad to say, this is something that I can't give now.
I had once trusted someone a lot and all I can said is that, I felt that it had not been returned in kind. I felt like an idiot at times and though the pain is slowly going away, the scars are still there. Well, I had always tell myself this. Time is the best medication for all kind of pain. I am sure that sooner or later, I would not be needing any kind of medication. In the meantime, thanks to those who had asked me the above question. I think I am quite happy with what I had now. My mum, friends, work and hopefully, soon to be part time student life. Will update you guys more on this in another time.
Now, PLEASE LET ME SLEEP!!! TONS OF WORK ARE WAITING FOR ME TOMORROW!!!!!
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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