Thursday, February 22, 2007
This is going to be a long post. Firstly, Happy Chinese New Year to all. I am sure all of you had fun meeting up with old friends, relatives and collecting lots of hong baos. For the first time, my Chinese New Year was spent mainly with my mum. Accompanying her to my relatives' homes and answering the usual questions. Why are you still single? Well, just put it this way. If I have an answer, I wouldn't be coming here alone. My dear aunt and uncle.
Anyway, just caught the above movie earlier in the evening. Watching it makes me ponder on a lot of issue. I am sure if you had been following my blog, you would have known that I have an uncle who is an ex drug addict. For his sake, I hope that the ex will be a permanent tag on him. For he is simply too old to be addicted to that god forsaken stuff again.
There is one scene in the movie that tugged at my heart strings. The female lead was getting high on drugs and started to fantasize that she was in a beautiful world with all those beautiful sights. Saying stupid stuff in front of others and behaving strangely. It made me think of my uncle.
I had seen him in this kind of state before. I can still recall that I was feeling afraid back then. Why would someone behaved in this kind of manner? He seemed so distant from me at that very moment. How could someone who just had lunch with me behave so differently in a matter of hours?
After spending the trip back after the movie pondering about it, I think the feeling I had now for him is sympathy. I am afraid that he might end up like the female lead at the end of the day. The thought of seeing him like that simply frightened me. I wish I could help but sad to say, I can't.
He had told my Mum to cut off all ties with him. Never call him again and just forget that we had a relative like him. Most importantly, he asked my mum to make sure that I do not follow in his footsteps. I am touched that he still care for me at this moment. Just like he had always done so when I was a kid. I think he was simply trying to make lives easier for us. Not having to visit him at Drug Rehabilitation Center and letting my mum cry over his incompetency.
One of the questions the director of this show asked us was; Which is more scary? Drugs or the feeling of emptiness? My answer to this question is the same as the director.
If only someone had stopped him at the very beginning. Things would have been so different. Sad to say, nothing can turn the clock back. I really hate to lose someone whom I was so close to when I was a kid. To me, he was like my dad that I never had back then.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QItUmkv7fR4
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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