Friday, August 25, 2006
A friend of mine passed away recently in a tragic accident. Though I wasn't that close to him, I still feel for him and his parents.
Dear Shawn Lim,
The day I read the news about you on the papers, my mind was in a shock. Never in my mind had I thought that I will lose a friend of mine to an accident. To me, you are still too young to be taken away by someone above.
I still recall those days when we were in the army. Yes, you might have been brash at times but I associated that with youth. You were still only 20 then. We had some fun times in the army together. Especially when we were repairing our A vehicles together and during Ex Wallaby.
I saw you recently during our in camp training. It was the first time that we had really spend sometime together. It was during then that I began to know you better. Knowing that you are not a typical rich man son who I always thought you were.
You do have dreams. Like what you shared with me. You hope to do well in UK so that you can take over your Dad business when you are back. You want to tie the knot with your gf when you are back and also get a faster car too. It was the last part that I disagree with you on.
Till now I can't really accept the fact that the car you had used to fetch me back to camp was the tool that took you away. It was great of you to offer me a ride during our nights off. Even though I was not located near to you then. You knew that I was feeling down over some personal issues then and had volunteer to fetch me back. To make my life easier and also have a ride in your dream car. I really appreciated it.
Though I did shared with you on the dangers of speeding, I really regretted that I never talked more about it with you. I was glad that you had treated me as someone who you can share your secrets with but I am regretting that I never offer you the advice which I think I should have. For that, I got to say a word of sorry to you.
My condolences goes to your parents. I was hoping to see them when I was at your wake that day. Sad to say, I didn't. I had wanted to give them words of encouragement. Yes. They might have lost someone who they had pinned all their hopes on for the past 23 years. Yes. Life might had thrown them a challenge again when they should be happily looking forward to their retirement. But no matter what, life still have to go on. I hope that they will be strong. People would normally pity those who had passed away but I think that those who are left behind deserve more time and concern from us. They had to accept the fact that someone who is close to their heart had left them forever.
There will be times when they hope that he will be still there. There will be times that they will be thinking what would he had said if he was still around. Pain don't fall immediately after someone had left you. It will only strike when you are all alone or helpless. When you are crying out for help or looking for someone to listen to you. Pain will only strike when you are totally helpless. I can't said that I understand how they are feeling now but I had lost someone who was close to me before. I know how painful it was. I am just glad that I had survive that tough period. I am sure that your parents will pass through it too.
I hope that you can find peace in the other world. Though I hate to see you leave, I realize that life is not something that we can control. Life is not like mathematics where formula could be calculated or created. It is always full of surprises, miracles, happinness and sadness. I am sad to see you leave my friend. Rest in Peace.
Best Regards
Your Sergeant and Friend
Christopher Sim
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven
I'll find my way, through night and day
Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven
Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knee
Time can break your heart
Have you begging please
Begging please
Beyond the door
There's peace I'm sure.
And I know there'll be no more...
Tears in heaven
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven
Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
12:40 AM
12:40 AM
