Monday, July 03, 2006
Wanted to share some thoughts I had after coming back from my In Camp. It's amazing how the human mind mature as we age. The things that we want also became different as time passes by. I still remembering sharing with some of my friends back in 2003 before we ORD what kind of jobs we wanted after 2 plus years in the army. We shared our dreams and aspirations. Some of them were crazy (such as dating as much gals as possible to make up for the 2 years of hell) to serious dreams (Studying part time and to get our first car when we are 26 or 27). The topic of our conversation had differ as time pass us by.
My first in Camp in 2004 was spent complaining about how hard it is to eke out a living. Starting with no work experience and money, life was always a struggle for all of us. The main topic was concentrated on how low our pay is (ranging from 1k to 1.4K) and how we hated our boss. We also chatted a lot on things that make no difference to our everyday life. Another way of describing it was talking Cock.
Now in 2006, the main topic we were talking about is marriage, how to apply for a home loan and how to invest our income so as to provide for our families and retirement. Topics that we are chatting now had become much more serious. No more jokes about those stupid things that we had done outside.
It suddenly dwell on me that I am aging. It is a fact. I am not the 21 year old boy back in 2001. Life now doesn't revolve around passing my exams and spending time with my gf. Life had become much more serious now. Whether I liked it or not. Growing up is something that I can't ignore anymore.
I tried to recall what kind of dreams I had back in 2003 and realize that one of it was having a decent income when I am 26 to 28. No way am I close to it now. I also dreamt that my mum can retire when I am 28 and spent her time with her friends and maybe, shopping with my future gf. No way am I close to that. Another of my dream was to have my own family when I am 30. Nope. Not close to this either. All these are giving me cold sweat. Are all my dreams going to be just dreams?
No way am I going to let all these be just pipe dreams. I am determinded to make them come true. Hard it might be but I will tried my best to work things out. It is time to be SERIOUS. Mr Sim Seng Yong Christopher. No more immature tantrums from you and more effort and time to your work. Be glad that you have a good learning opportunity now in your job. Be glad that you had friends who are always willing to stand up to your immature behaviour and nonsensical actions. Be glad that you had a mum(who is my best friend, counsellor and chatting mate) who had worked hard for the past 26 years taking care of you. Be glad God had given your a mind that can think well if only you want it to.
Yes. You might have a pretty screwed up family. A Dad who you don't know whether you should love or hate. A Grandpa you are still missing heavily now. For you felt sorry that you never let him have a taste of the good life you had always wanted for him. No one special in your life now to share the ups and downs with you but hey, Life is never fair. Life is always a challenge. I am sure the challenge is always to make us better. Not to make us worse off it. I am willing to face up to this challenge. As I said, it is time to GROW UP.
One of the songs that I am currently into.
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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