Wednesday, July 12, 2006
First, a birthday greeting for myself...
Yes, I am offically a 26 years old adult as you are reading this. Time really flies. Seems like yesterday that I started this blog but it had actually been 2 years ago. Back when I was a young punk working at Prudential. Thinking that my dreams will be achieved without any hard work. Sad to say that I might still be having this mindset in my life.
Stanley said that I don't work hard enough. A lot of my friends ridicule me for wasting the natural talents that I have by always taking the easy way out. I.E; not working hard and trying to slack my way through life. See, life is a cruel game. It takes no prisoners or slackers. Slackers like me. I think it is time to have a new mindset on life for me. I had been telling myself time and time about this. It is time to work hard and be serious about life. Stop dwelling about things that you don't have control over.
Happiness is in one hand. Only you yourself have the right to be happy or sad. Well, things are easier said than done. Sometimes, happiness is just like clapping. You need two to make it happen. Using a square peg to plug a round hole simply don't work at times. I am trying hard to adjust myself to this new form of life I am adopting for myself. Painful it might be but I am sure I will get used to it soon and come out better for it.
Meanwhile, it is time to set some resolutions for myself. Tried setting some this time last year and sad to say, literally none of it happen for me. See, blogging is a good thing. It kinda remind you of what had gone past in a year and how far you are still away from your dreams. Mine is literally out of reach now. Unless I buck up my attitude in life.
I got to start to work hard from now on. I must stop my mind from wandering. Day dreamimg about things that is not happening and might not ever happen in my life. Concentrate on things that I have control over of. My work, career and friends.
End of the day, I just want to be happy. Back when I was young, I would want a lot of fancy gifts for my birthday but as I aged, I realize that happiness is the one and only gift I am looking for. Thus, apologizes to my friends for my cold hearted response to your offers of celebrating my birthday for me. Cause I see no reason in celebrating it. Not when I am aging, further and further away from my dreams and simply not happy with my life. Just how to celebrate something when you are not happy with the state that it is in. Maybe someone could guide me on this.
Lastly, I would like to thank Stanley and my colleagues for the wonderful treat at No Signboard Seafood just now. Simply love the crabs over there and also the fact that someone still think that I am of any significance in this world to celebrate for. I really appreciate this. Really really do.
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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