Monday, May 22, 2006
Tired.. Damn tired. Work was a killer today as I didn't sleep well last night. Reason being best kept to myself. Was out of the office the whole day with Stanley and learnt a lot from him. Got a telling off from him last week and I got to agreed with the points he had raised up. I am compromising my own standards. That is simply unacceptable to me.
I think I blog more often than I post. Some posts are quite crap. Crap till a point which I find that there is no need to post. While some posts are private. Too private to be share. See, I am not someone who will go around telling the whole world what is happening. To me, privacy is something I value a lot. Kissing and telling is a definitely no no for me. So for friends who had been asking me questions about my personal life, please understand that I simply find no need to explain my actions.
To me, some of the things I do is simply unexplainable. I had done lots of foolish stuff. I myself know. But the human mind is shaped in such a strange way that once you had decided on the course of action, it is hard to change it. I understand this reason. That's why I am willing to give time to people who want to change their mind. I understand that something is just hard to change. Old habits die hard as they said. But come a point, you should know enough is enough.
See, a sinking boat which can't keep u afloat ought to be abandoned. It is as simple as that. No purpose to drown together with the boat. For there can't be just that one boat out in the sea. Not saying that I am on a sinking boat but at times, I felt like drowning.
So how u repair a sinking boat? Well, the most important thing is do you find it good enough for your voyage? See, your life is just like roughing out in the ocean. There are tough and choppy times. It is times like these that will test the limit of you and your boat. Not how it will hold out for you during the sunny season. Every boat can do that. See, sometimes what we are clinging on to are the good time we had with our boat during the sunny season. When everything is shine and nice. Great fun and memories under the sun.
What I value most is the turbulent times I have with it. The huge waves and heavy rain that fall on us. How we react and respond to it? Do we just give up like that or do my boat simply allow itself to sink without caring for me? Yes, times might be difficult then but it won't last forever. It is just like the tide of the sea. Not everyday will be a high tide. Neither will it be low forever. I have absolute confidence that my boat and I can survive all these storms together. For rainbow and sunshine await us at the other end. I am an optimistic person. Always have been. I am willing to go the distance with my boat. But is my boat ready for the voyage? No men can predict the weather ahead. More so what we will encounter in life. I am ready for the voyage. Let's just hope that we can all find the right boat soon. Life is an adventure. An adventure that is best venture together with a partner. Love will be the fuel for the ride ahead.
Dark clouds gathering ahead.
Lighting flashing and thunder roaring.
It is time like these that I am grateful.
Grateful that I can provide the shoulder for you to cling on to.
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
11:35 PM
11:35 PM
