Wednesday, January 11, 2006
海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外??
The weather had been wet and gloomy over these past few days. It had been like that ever since Sat. Not sure if heaven is trying to shed a tear for me by raining non stop or wake me up with the incessant rain. Well, I think the weather had not really been helping me in getting over my pain.
It is always in times of trouble that you know who your Kakis are. How I define a Kaki? Someone who is willing to put up with all my bullshit and nonsense. I am going to thank everyone one by one below. Do let me know if I left u out k?
Padi or Adlin: Thanks for giving me the CPU treatment on Sat night. I can't imagine spending it alone inside the prison I call home. I really appreciate it. Glad to know that someone know just how much hurt and pain I am feeling. I am really grateful for your advice. It is just what my head is telling me but you are right. I am just too soft hearted. But then again, I will not be the same person you like as a friend if I was that logical in my thoughts. I always believe that my emotional side is the side which help me to make decision that I will not regret. Seems like I may be wrong this time. Nonetheless, THANK YOU. I owe you big time for the counselling session on Sat.
Alson: I had always maintain that you are the friend who tell me nothing but the cold hard truth everytime. Nothing but the truth. Though it hurts me to hear what you are saying, but i know that the best medicine always taste bitter. The truth might hurt me but it will only bring me closer to reality. What that does not suit me, simply will not suit no matter how hard I try to change it. But like what I told you, you will never know what will happen in the future. I just like to keep my options open. Though deep in my heart, I wish that I can be as logical as you. I really hope that I can. If it can spare me some of the pain that I am feeling now.
Benson: You are those friends who can be a great Uncle Agony. Always a great listening ear to have around. I am so sorry that I can't tell you all that had happened this time. Nonetheless, you will always be my bro. This is something that I am sure of. Really grateful that Alson and you came down just now to accompany me for a few drinks and card games. Really help my mind from wandering for a short while. Though I know that I will still have to walk the path alone. Just glad to know that there will always be friends by my side who are willing to carry me for part of the journey. I will try to quit that bad habit of mine. This is not just my promise to you but also to that someone else who I held in high estemm.
Vincent: Slack King, Chelsea or whatever you like to call youself. You are simply great at just being who you are. Being analytical and critical in your scolding to me. How I wish i can wake up this time. I really need time. I understand all that you are coming from. I really do. Thanks for all the lecture through msn or your "nuisance" calls to me. I will wake up soon. I am sure of that.
Melinda: Though I had known you for the shortest period among all these people here, I am really grateful that you called me to check on me. Young you might be but you sure have more experience than me in this stupid thing we call love. Thanks for volunteering to be my listening ear. And yes, I still remember thar I owe you Happy Meals and Ice Cream from Swensens. I will definitely treat you all these and keep my promise to you if you hit 6 accounts this month k? Don't let me down. I had always believe and maintain that you can do it if you have more self belief and confidence in yourself. You are simply one heck of a young lady. I am just glad to have you as my colleague, friend and Little Sis. ;)
Charisse: All I can say is that I should have taken your advice on that day you told me. For this, I will promise to go to any chionging session you organise in the future. Just make sure that i won't have to Q for too long. Uncle here hate queing. :P
Yuhui: Thanks for your concern. I am not ignoring you. Trust me on that. It is just that i was damn tied up with work for the past few months. And yes, I will remember our dinner this time round. Just glad that you are there to offer me your advice. ;)
And lastly, the greatest kudos go to my Mum. Though i know that she will never read it. I just got to say that if there really is to be an afterlife, I will want to be your parent in the next lifetime. Be it mother or father. It is the only way which I can repay you for all the nonsense and troubles I had created for you for the past 25 years. You had always let me do what i think is right. And yet, preparing to console me whenever things don't turn out the way which I want to. Trusting and believing me 100% in whatever I am doing. You are simply the best friend to me ever. You simply know how I think and yet can point me to the right path. I like it when you say that: "Well, I am not saying give up but you should set your priorities right and the rest will just fill it in by itself". It's the same way I am thinking but yet can't force my heart to do it. Each and every word of your advice was just what I am wanting to hear. I love you. I really do. Sorry for making you feel worry. You should not have this feeling long time ago. I am just grateful that you had chosen me rather than leave me with Dad. I doubt i will be here blogging if I had follow him. What I will be doing? I am shivering with fear whenever this thought come to my mind. You are simply the greatest Mum I can ever ask for. How I wish I can have your ear to talk to and shoulder to lean on whenever I need it. If there really is a God out there, please let you stay by my side for as long as possible. I can't imagine you ever not being by my side. I know I am sounding like a mummy boy but I will not be me if it wasn't for you. I love you Mum. I really do.
窗外阴天了音乐低声了
我的心开始想你了
灯光也暗了音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了
电话响起了你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎麽你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了是你变了
灯光熄灭了音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤
我加速超越
却甩不掉紧紧跟随的伤悲
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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