Monday, December 26, 2005
Merry Christmas to everyone out there. This had been one of the most unforgettable amd memorable Christmas that I had ever been through. Though it ended in a sad note, I prefer to dwell on the happy side. One of my dreams was fulfiled. Though it was cruelly taken away from me after a day, but hey, at least I live the dream before. It was as good as I had imagined it to be. I am smiling as I am typing this and thinking about it. If time was to be turn back, I will make the same decision. I never regretted it for a single moment. Even though I had to wake up from this sweet dream in the end.
First, apologizes to Kenn. Was unable to catch up with you last week. Seems like our timetable is always a bit off from each other. I think we meet after New Year k? Feeling damn crappy now. No mood to have any form of decent conversation and also discuss abt LGM. Also got to say sorry to friends who had asked me out for Christmas eve and Christmas Bash. I was sorry that i couldn't make it due to unforseen circumstances. Will make up to you guys soon. ;)
It is strange to be blogging at such an early hour. Try as i had but I just can't seems to shut my eyes and take a well deserved rest. It is at times like this that I hope that I can have amnesia. If only I could choose just what memories to forget and what to keep. Maybe life will be better. But then again, no one single person will be able to only give you good memories of him or her. The good must definitely come with the bad. It is just that the good memories are keeping me wide awake. I always seems to remember the happy and wonderful times someone had given me. If I could only just concentrate on the bad memories, maybe life wouldn't be so miserable now. I could use the bad memories to forget about all that had happened. I just can't. I had try my best but I just can't. Never thought that I will be using this word on me but I am really feeling miserable now. The more I type, the more I am beginning to hate that someone up there. Is this a form of test for me? Why make me have a view of paradise only to throw me back into hell? If you are trying to break me, I am so sorry. I am made of stronger stuff than this. I will be back stronger and kicking. Yes, this is what i will aim for in the New Year. I will move on soon. Anyway, time is really a great healing medicine. The only thing bad about it is that it can be too slow for your liking at times.
Friends who care about me, just leave me alone for the time being. Don't ask me about what had happened. It is very private. I will be glad if I can be allow to keep some secrets of my own. Just let this blog be my explaination for my strange behaviour for these past few days and maybe for the next few weeks. To you: You know who you are, ;) I will try to move on as promised. You must keep your side of the promise too. Move on and forget about everything that had happened.
我想要学会自我催眠
痛觉会少一些
潜意识作祟想着想到失眠
我躺在没有你的房间
寂寞更加明显
我渐渐的自我催眠
却回不到从前
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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