Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Some of you guys out there might had seen me on Tv last Fri night. I had not seen it personally but heard it from some of my friends. I was being interviewed on Frontline, a current affairs programme on Channel 8.
Comments on my appearance on TV range from: your hair is messy (When will u ever comb your hair so neat when u are just going down to pack lunch?!?!), you look damn sleepy (I just came back from appointment what, travelling will make u tried), your eyes really damn small (This is a bit personal liao, when did u ever seen me with big eyes? For this U got to check with my parents on why was I born with such small eyes) and why you chose to speak english when the interview is for Channel 8 (I had just read the news article and it was in ENGLISH. :P)
Not sure when will the repeat be. Just feel kinda strange if I was to see myself on Tv. See when I was very young (6-9 yrs old lah), I used to like imaging that I was singing in front of a lot of fans. Yup. I did dreamt of becoming a singer when I was young. I think it was in my genes. My Dad (useless as he might be) used to sing for those Teochew drama troupe and according to my mum, part of the reason why she fell in love with him. My sis (who had since left me) used to be quite good in singing. Was with some sort of band before she got married. Sadly though, as I grew older I began to realize that no way will I be fulfiling this dream.
First, I always get cold feet in front of strangers. Yes. I am shy. Don't think anyone who is unsure of himself can make it in the entertainment circle. Secondly, my looks suck. I am not like some handsome guy who can sweep ladies off their feet nor cute enough to make gals go ga ga over me. And lastly, I just don't have the voice to make people swoon over my singing.
Why am i saying all this? Well, cause I realize that not all dreams come true. Be it your personal life or your love life. Yes, you might be disappointed but life moves on. Sometimes, dreams are most beautiful when you never get them. Cause if it turns out to be not what you had imagined, I can't fathom the disappointment you will get from it.
No way am I saying that you should just give up your dreams when difficulties abound and just dream about it. You should always try your very best. I did but had to give it up when all the circumstances were just against me. Yes. We can dream but we also have to be realistic in our dreams. No point dreaming to get the star down by your side when you know deep in your heart that it will never happen and it will be most beautiful and happy at where it used to be.
Hope that your dreams will come true. I am still dreaming though. Though I know that it will never happen. Memories of how hard I had try to reach it and the stupid things that I had done will never fail to bring a smile to my face. Imagination is boundless.
好心好报
落力为你好得不到分数
你决定要跟他日后同步
他不懂爱惜你我乐意操劳
还看着你看你在悬崖走路
他却放下你只照顾自己
我这片苦心无人赞美
还不敢开口不能妒忌
对你好无人稀罕我好
无人欣赏我好
原来你习惯他一套
从来没有爱我看得清楚我知道
不必得到不妨陪衬但愿为你好
好明明比他更好旁人都知我好
为何你又与他拥抱来磨练我
我信有好心得好报
好人似我问谁做到
是受罪也好听听你哭诉
你说难过总比分手更好
你说几多的女主角也受过煎熬
情况坏到你信任来年一日
他答应做到统统都做到
我也似你的无从劝告
宁愿牺牲都不愿却步
虽然这秒时辰未到
我太好无人珍惜我好
无人喜欢我好
原来要学会他一套
从来没有吻过记得清楚我知道
不必得到不妨陪衬但愿为你好
好明明比他更好旁人都知我好
无人爱慕我忍得到
仍然相信我会有天终于等到
可能你有日会知道
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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