Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Another sleepless night. Did I slept too much in the day or am I afraid of having the same dream I had last night? Maybe I should give u guys some updates on my life. Work had been busy but rewarding. I am on 23 cards now(if everything get through) with 10 more to go before I hit the top tier. Really hope that I am able to hit it. Though the holiday and my personal life seems to be putting a stop to me achieving the goal.
Watched the derby match on Sat. Disappointed that Spurs drew. We should have killed off those scums before half time. But like me, Spurs is a work in progress. I am sure we will get better as the season pass by.
Missing someone is a strange feeling to have. The thought of seeing her soon might perk you up and keep you going. It could also lead you doing things that you had never done before nor think you will ever do. But the very thought that she is not beside you could also make u down. Down to a point where you can't even get the simplest thing done and time seems to be dragging its feet around. Not going fast enough as if it is stopping you from seeing her soon and forcing you to spend more time thinking of her.
On your mind you will be wandering. Just what is she doing now? Is she ok? Happy with what she is having now? Or can things be better? Your mind will just wander without you knowing it. Yes. It is stupid but it is something that your mind have no control over of. We can't tell our mind to stop thinking of something. Stop missing that someone. Stop doing this or stop doing that. People have emotions. This is one of the key factor that seperate us from animals. We will miss someone when they are not around. We will always want the best for that someone we like. But we might not be the one who is providing it.
This is the cold hard truth. You might have thought that you are the one who can do it. Bringing happiness to that someone you cared about. But life is cruel. You won't have your way. The one who you want to care about might not be the one who you will end up with. She or he might choose that someone who you think will not do as good a job as you. But who are you to judge for her or him? How can you be sure of what she wants?
Letting go is the correct choice. But there is a catch. Saying is definitely simpler than doing it. Way more simple. Whenever you thought you had turned a corner or dug yourself out of that hole you had created, you might had just fell into another one without you realizing it. Time is the best medication for you. Time is a remarkable tool. It can heal all kind of wounds. Be it heartache from missing someone or a failed relationship. Time is what I need now.
爱一个人可以不知道为什么
我们原来不是代表你我两个
忘不忘掉早已经不是属于我说
有时候有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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