Monday, October 17, 2005
Never knew that listening to radio can result in insonmia. Was trying to get some sleep and thought that listening to the radio might help me a bit here. Well, the love songs being played by Class 95 is simply too nice. I am not trying to advertise for them but I am a sucker for love songs. Esp at this moment. On a lonely Sun night.
Someone once told me that I am a person who is afraid of loneliness. This makes me wonder. Who is not afraid of loneliness? I might be used to it by now but I am still afraid of it. I always believe that God created people in pairs. If men were meant to stay alone and not in need of any help or companionship, why is there a need in having men and women? Why make us go through so much pain just to find your missing piece? Not deriding singlehood but one should be in a relationship sooner or later. It is a way of life. Searching for that someone is like searching for a missing piece in your heart. Only your heart can tell you who it need to fill up that hole. That hole of loneliness. The craving for that someone who can see through life together with you.
Some had found it. Some thought that they had found it. Some knew that the piece they are currently holding on to is not the missing piece. Yet, they choose to hold on to it as they felt a need for something to patch them up. They don't care if it is not a good match. All they want is something to block that hole inside their heart. I wish the best for them. It might just evolve into something that will match them. If not, just treat it as a learning experience. Life experience is best learnt from falls and tumbles. Not from listening to advice and keeping everything safe. An average life span is only around 75 yrs. We don't have that many years to screw up anyway.
Getting a bit emotional now. Don't know why but had this feeling that the hole in my heart is bleeding a bit more than usual tonight. It seems to be crying out for that missing piece to stop the bleeding. Not sure if it is just me, the weather or some other factors. I pray for a good night rest and the healing of my wound soon.
I am also praying that the missing piece you are holding on to now is the piece that your heart is crying out for. Have confidence in your decision. Like what I had said, all that matter is what your heart need and want. Only you yourself know which is your missing piece. Not me nor your friends. Just remember, even if you were to fall again, you will be better off as a person. And I will definitely be there to hold you back up again.
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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