Monday, September 19, 2005
I am sure most of you guys out here had read about the maid killing incident that had happened recently. It kinda show us the dark side of the lifestyle of Filipino maids in S'pore. What can possibly drive two close friends apart with one killing and dismembering the other in the end. Only a thing we called as Love. Love, when not being acknowledge by the other party can turn to hatred.
I never had much confidence in love. No offence but marriage to me seems to be there so that a divorce can happen. Close friends of mine had divorce with their partners. My parents had it when I was young and also parents of my close friends. I am always skeptical on the Living Happily Ever After. That's too fairytale for my liking. I mean it is just too difficult. Not impossible. I would never use that word. But with much difficulty. To make a relationship tick, I think the most important factor is the trust between 2 parties. To believe whatever he or she is telling you and trusting her not to cheat or do something wrong to you. A relationship without trust is due to fail the first day it began it's embarkation. I just find it hard to trust someone in a relationship. There seems to be a cloud over my head whenever I think of it. Maybe it is the things that my Dad had done to my mum. Maybe it is the lies I had seen people telling to their partners. I hate being lied to and I am sure everyone out there feel the same.
If you had read the papers on Sun, it is quite common for foreign workers to have a partner here. It just make me feel more disappointed with this thing we call Love. I had been single for close to 3 years now and I think one of the main reason is that I am afraid of things like this happening. I would admit that I am lacking in confidence and also security when it come to love. Even in my previous relationships, I would broke out in cold sweat in the middle of the night. Dreaming of us breaking up just like what my parents had done.
Anyway, I would like to apologize to someone who I had misbelieved in. I should had trusted you. Sorry for the black face which I had showed you. Seems like I need more time to cure myself of this illness in me.
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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