Friday, August 05, 2005
Haven't been blogging for quite sometime. I think it might be a case of writer block. Quite busy with my life ba. As in work life. Love life is still a blank. Though my close friends might beg to differ. Shouldn't be complaining too much about this. Anyway, just feel that my current job might not really be the one for me. The problem is my boss. Not my immediate boss but my MD. I think success can really breed contempt. He is always at the office. Reading his newspaper and doing his "work". I am fine with that but the fact that he keep picking on me whenever I am in the office due to a lack of appointment. Let's face it. If I am that good as in to fill my whole week of appointment, do you really think I will still stay there for that pathetic pay? Well, I am about to finish paying off my debts thanks to this job(Still a remaining sum to Benson) and I will seriously consider changing to another job. It is a pity that I will be leaving behind a great bunch of colleagues. One of the best bunch of people I had ever worked with. And I will definitely miss my fishes when I am gone. From a small fish tank to one with 41 fishes and 2 water plants, I am proud of that acheivement. :)
Met up with my former tution teacher. I am so glad to see him again. He can be consider as a beacon of light to me. He took me in his wings when I was in Sec 3. It was at the stage that I was the most rebellious and cocky ass head u can ever see. I always think that the whole world was against me and life was being unfair to me. I hated school and homework. I flunked my maths so badly that my mum got to come down to see my form teacher. Serving dentention class for nearly everyday of the week and with grades that are ridiciously low. My mum enrolled me into the free tution classes that her buddhist society was organising. I was placed under his wing and boy did I gave him hell.
I was always not doing the handwork given to me, late for my classes or sometimes not even bothering to turn up at all. But I was lucky that he was patient with me. He started coming to my home to give me tution and also started to talk with me. Talking sense into a boy who is wasting his life away. I started to see the light at the end of the tunnel. To be frank, my results were not that fantastic at the O Levels but I always felt that it could have been a lot worse if not for him, my form teacher and another tution teacher of mine.
I felt quite blessed in a way that I might have lose out on having a father in my life, I had definitely been rewared with a lot of mentors and great friends. I think life will always balance itself out in a way. That's why I always like to help counsel my friends (though I suck) whenever they have problems in life. I always believe that anyone can be a beacon of light for someone. By listening to their problems. Even if at the end of the day, you can't give them any help, listening alone will had been a great help. That's why we are given 2 ears and 1 mouth.
To all my friends who had seen the worst of me and is still standing behind me, I would really like to say a big thank you. Not sure if she will ever get to read this, but I would like to say a Big Thank You to my former form teacher, Miss Wong. Though I had hated u in the past for always giving me punishment and deducting my "high" test points as a result of not doing my homework, I am glad that you had do that. The counselling you given me had really make me realize how wilful and stupid I was in the past.
Life is a series of tumbles and falls. The most important thing is to get up, brush off the dust and dirt off your body and move on. Lingering around will not stop the pain nor bring you towards the solution. I think I should be talking about myself now ba. Must work harder in life. 25 already and yet without an acheivement that I can be proud of. But I am confident that I will acheive what I want in times to come. Everyone, let's Jia You!! Ganbatte!!
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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