Thursday, August 18, 2005
I haven't been blogging quite often recently. Not sure if it is because I am busy or just too lost to talk about myself. Well, last week was a kinda white wash for me. Beside the great fun that I had on National Day eve, the rest of the week sucks. I had a cough(still coughing) and was knocked out from Fri night to Sun night. Thanks to a stubborn me who refused to take antibiotics. The reason being that I will always forget to finish the whole course. The result will be me screwing myself. The activities that I took part in over the weekend was the NTU Hall 1 pageant(sponsored by Looking Glass Models :) ) and a soccer game on Sat morning which I played damn badly. Not sure if it is the cough or just me not playing for quite sometime. I set standards for myself in whatever I do. And I am damn PISSED with myself on that day. I think a Sec Sch kid would have kick my ass off the field.
Well back to life in general. Seems like S'poreans just ain't mature enough to decide who could be our president. Quite sure that's the thinking of our Goverment. Only 1 out of 4 applicants got the certificate for Nomination of President and I am sure you won't be surprised by who was it. No offence but I think a fair fight should be set up and S'poreans will judge for themselves who is fit to be president. If we still need the approval of a commitee, what is the need for an electorate? They might as well go back to the old method of the president being nominated by the Prime Minister and approved by the cabinet. I got nothing against President S R Nathan but just afraid that he might be a bit old for the job. 81 now and 87 when his term is completed. Just a bit too old.
Talking about myself now. Just did a calculation and found out that I will be broke for next month also. Now I fully understand the meaning of "It doesn't rain. It pours" My lovable PC had finally decided to call it a day. I got to give it to him. From 2001 till now. There might be minor hiccups along the way but he had never really fail me. Just as I am about to finish clearing my debts, my motherboard die on me. Another $200 gone just like that. The best part is I can only afford to repair it next month as I am down to my last $100 for the month. So for friends who always see me online, don't think that I am a miser or a no life fellow. Just take it that I am broke.
Part of the problem that I am so broke is because of my "high" paying job. I am given a product which take ages to sell and a boss who is not really giving me much help at it. I love the way he say: " Sales people must be more independent and resourceful. I can't hand feed you all the way" Coming from the same mouth which said: " Don't worry. There will be training and help for you as I understand that you are new in corporate sales." Seems like there can really be a hybrid of angel and demon. I am still a contract worker( probation for 4 months and running) with a low basic pay, a high commission part as my salary( can only get if I sell which seems like impossible at times), no handphone allowance( the whole company get it), no medical allowance( the whole company get it) and only no paid leave allow. I am officially on a job hunt. Don't wanna overstay my welcome.
There had been plans to expand the operation of Looking Glass. Can't disclose much now but will give update when things had settled down. I am a bit afraid but at the same time excited. This could be a move that can make or break us. Detailed planning must be done before we can proceed. If things go well, I will be offically joining the self employed family. Which means even more broke and longer working hours. I hate being broke. But being broke is the process all successful people need to go through. I just hope that my suffering is worth it at the end of the day.
Can't stop now - Keane
I noticed tonight that the world has been turning
While I've been stuck here dithering around
Well I know I said I'd wait around till you need me
But I have to go, I hate to let you down
But I can't stop now
I've got troubles of my own
Cause I'm short on time
I'm lonely
And I'm too tired to talk
I noticed tonight that the world has been turning
While I've been stuck here withering away
Well I know I said I wouldn't leave you behind
But I have to go, it breaks my heart to say
That I can't stop now
I've got troubles of my own
Cause I'm short on time
I'm lonely
And I'm too tired to talk
No one back home
I've got troubles of my own
And I can't slow down
For no one in town
And I can't stop now
And I can't slow down
For no one in town
And I can't stop now
For no one
Emotion keeps my heart on me
Emotion keeps my heart on me
Emotion keeps my heart on me
Emotion keeps my heart on me
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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