Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Was about to sleep when I chance upon Jiazz's(who "inspired" me to use the zz after a word) blog. Not sure how I can console her. I had been through what she is going through and I know how shitty it can be. The dreading of the day when it will happen. The day when someone whom u had treasure so much finally say goodbye to you. Before I talk more on this, got to talk about what happened last night.
Met up with Alson and his colleague Colleen for dinner. She is a young lady who I had just know recently. She is a happy go lucky lady who never fail to amuse me with her actions. She suggested going for some drinks after the dinner which we agreed to. Well, little did I know that she is doing that to escape the fact that his dad was suffering from cancer. She only told me about it when she had a sip too much. See, she felt that she is the most useless person in the world. Reasons being that she can't help her dad from his agony, not doing enough when he is around and why would God(if there is one) do something to a man she deemed to be the nicest in the world. Well, I am no God but I had always believe that things happen for a reason.
I also felt the same way she does when I was seeing my beloved Grandpa wasting his life away in front of my eyes. He was in a coma for near to 3 months. Things like this force us to grow up. Learning that everyday is really a gift that we must treasure. Doing things with passion and commitment. Telling the person we love just how much we love them. Living as if each day is the last for you. Life is never fair. Pain and disappointment is just part and parcel of growing up. Some realize it and move on to better things in life. Some dwell on it for much longer. I hope that she will try to move on. Spend more time with his Dad. It is the least she can do. She is not a doctor and definitely not God. She can't decide who stay and who goes. She should live her life to the fullest. Making sure that if her dad is able to survive this, he will be a very proud Dad. Proud that his daughter is fulfilling one of his dreams. I am sure all Dad will want happiness and success for their children.
This lead me to Jiazz. See, you are much more mature than Colleen. You just need to show more of your emotions. I mean don't pent it all up. Crying out does not mean that you are weak. I know that these are trying times for you. Your grandma, you seemingly lost in both your career and life and maybe some other stuff which I and your friends don't know. No man or in your case lady is an island. Try to talk more about your problems with people that you are comfortable with. It really helps. At least you know that you are not alone in this place we call Earth. I ain't good at counselling and consoling people but really hope to see you bouncing back from all these. Things that don't break you will only make you stronger. I also hope that your Grandma will go away peacefully but life like what I had said might just be unfair to your Grandma. My heart goes out to these two young ladies who is going through what I think is a valuable lesson in life. I am sure you will grow up to be a stronger person.
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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