Wednesday, January 05, 2005
Well well. Finally 2005 had arrived. I approached it with both anticipation and a bit of worry. Will it be like 2004 which can easily ranked as one of the most fucked up year of my life or will it be a brand new start to a better era for me. Both personally and career-wise. I am still pondering whether to start totally afresh or hang on to my adviser job. Even if I am a part-timer in it, I can still ensure that the benefits of my clients are taken of. To be honest, I view them all as my friends than clients. I had developed a bond with them that I felt bad when I had the thought of forsaking them for greener pastures. Decisions. I really can't decide on it. To be honest, part of me want to stay but my mind is telling me that the family need money and I must do my best to do it and the easiest way is to get a stable job. Things will be better if I have a good boss but the longer I hang around with him, the more I feel disgusted with his actions. To summarise, I respect him as a salesperson as he is damn good in sales but not as a fellow human being.
Anyway, Happy New Year to all my readers. Just in case I never sent u a sms or say so in person. New year eve wasn't spent very constructively. Met up with James only after 12 when the whole world already had their fun and merry making. Was able to rot at home when he called and said he will bring me to some "happening" place. In the end, it was spent in a car travelling from Central Mall to Mohd Sultan and back to Central Mall again. Ended up at East Coast at a pub cum restuarant. Can't remember the name but it was cosy, nice and the chicken wings there rocks!! I think it is named Cavana or what. Must go back there again man.
The year end period was also a very good time for me to have some reflections. Like what will I had done differently if time can be turn back. I had never really liked the festive season and I still have the same views on it. I always feel that the festive season is best spent with your loved ones. No offence to my friends but what i think I want is really to send it with someone who I can relate to and also share the same vision as me. Kinda like finding a needle in hay. This is how I feel like. Singlehood rocks but it is time like this that you will feel like having a companion. Someone who will know what is on your mind, what's troubling you and what is the best way to soothe away your worries and encourage you. I am feeling down not just of my own problems. I also felt sad for the innocent victims of the tsunami disaster. I wanted so much to donate money to them but realize that i don't even have enough for myself. If I can't help myself, how can I help others? Close friends of mine should know that I like helping people. It saddens me that I am the one who needs help now.
Well, I got to end this on a joyous note. It is a brand new year for everyone. No use still wallowing in self pity and feeling down. Spurs will be playing Manure tonight. It is a match that I won't miss cause it had been a long time I am so optimistic of us getting a result at Manure and also seeing Ryan Giggs playing like how he used to. Gliding past defenders and riding their tackles. Thanks a lot to Kenn who managed to get me the autograph of Giggs. It is standing on top of my monitor. :) The best gift I had gotten during the festive season.
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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