Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Insomia again. Two days in a row. Is it just me or is it the feeling you get after going through a lousy year and realizing that next year don't seems to be going any better by how things are looking. I am feeling stress. I hate to admit it but I am feeling it. Almost no income for near to 6 months thanks to Prudential who is crawling back my allowance(Next month is the last months finally!!)and my personal life in crumbles. Actually wanted to talk about how I spent my Christmas weekend but now feeling more about complaining and whining which I think I am quite good at. A master toolsmen never blame his tools but himself. Forgot who told me that but it is kinda true. If you never work hard at the first place, how can you expect to see the rewards? Been asking myself this question whether I had been working very hard. Well, I got to be true to myself. I can work harder that what I am doing now. I had done it before. Anyway, had a good discussion with Alson today regarding how we plan to go in our work life. I am seriously thinking of being a part-time adviser and looking for a full time job. I don't expect fantastic salary. But the job must be flexible and not too desk bound. No. I am not thinking of jumping over to be Another Insurance Agent(AIA) :P
Well, back to my Christmas weekend. To be true, I won't say that is suck except for one bad incident. It all started on Thurs. Bear with me on this as it is quite long. Got a summon on that very day. Was crossing the road to Capitol Building from City Hall Mrt Station. S'poreans should know which junction I am talking about. As I was crossing, I noticed people stopping behind the pillar for quite sometime. (Capitol Building got a lot of big pillars) Not taking much notice of it, I ran across the road(A lot of people do that and still is doing this even as I am typing) to catch a cab(I was late). Suddenly a nice petite lady wearing a blue uniform walked over to me with a smile and said " Sir, I notice that you had jaywalked across the street. Can I have your IC please?" Talk about bad luck. I was late for my appointment, wasted money on cab and kena a summon to top it up. Anyway, just be careful when you are crossing that junction again. After the appointment was my agency Christmas party(Lousy party with lousy food and literally no booze even when it is just $18 per jug) at a pub called Detention Class at ValleyPoint. I wouldn't called the place Ulu but then again, it is not that easy to find too. Received a very nice present from Xiwei(Feeling bad as my gift to another colleague of mine sucks BIG TIME!) and caught a great movie in Kung Fu Hustle.
Christmas eve was spent with my friends coming over for cards game, XBox, food and drinks. Things started out great but went downhill the moment James start to drink excessively. Turns out he is having a cold war with his gf and feeling moody. He ended up being damn drunk and the whole thing got to end at 2+. Anyway, have fun talking cock with Alson and Vincent. We called ourself the Wo Men Gang. Wo Men in chinese means We cause we are such poor souls with nothing happening going on in our life. This is part and parcel of singlehood.
Lastly, wanted to give my condolences to those victims of the earthquake that hit Aceh Indonesia. As we are celebrating away the New Year, maybe we can spare a thoughts for them. I always believe that S'poreans are lucky to be born in such a great place. We hardly had any natural disaters ever and our goverment is not corrupt like our neighbours. Even as I was complaining about my lousy year, the moment I read the news my heart sunk. Those victims who died are all like us. Rushing in Christmas and waiting for the arrival the new year. What had they done to deserve this? My heart lies with them and I really hpe that things will take a turn for better over there. Will try to go sleep now. Peace to the world. :)
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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