Friday, November 26, 2004
Well I been thinking bout the future
But I'm too young to pretend
It's such a waste to always look behind you
Should be lookin' straight ahead
Yeah, I'm gonna have to move on
Before we meet again
Yeah, it's hard
If you had've only seen
Well, today offically mark the end of my Crush on her. Though I am feeling a bit lost now, I got to move on like what Pig Head keep on telling me. Well, let's just say that I wasn't really in with a shout at all in the beginnning. You know how you will always like to create an illusion to take you away from all the troubles you are facing in your daily life. Then without you realizing it, you will really take the illusion as the real deal. Well, illusions never last. They are not meant to be lasting. It does perk you up for a short while, like taking a drug. It also had bad effects like a drug cause the more you take it, the harder you will find it to quit. It is just like not wanting to know the truth that you are just a sucker and addict when all those around you already knew it.
Well, first of all I got to say my thanks to my friends who were by my side when I was living in that illusion. First of all is to the two unsung heroes in Jones and Guang. Thanks for spending up to 3 hours with me inside Far East. Trust me when I said that the last time I spent so much time there was when I was forced to shop with my ex. For encouraging me and giving me positive strength even though you guys knew that I am going to fail. For helping me keep the dream alive. For letting me follow my heart. Cheers to you guys.
Next of course is my Beloved Pig Head. Got to agreed with you on the fact that you are more experienced than me in matters of the heart. Your advice is always based on both side of the stories. You might be direct at times but I know that you did that based on your good intentions. You never wanted to help me live in illusion but in the end gave in to me cause you know that the best way is for me to climb back by myself instead of you helping me through every steps. Really appreciated each and single word of your advice. :)
Also to Alson. For finally waking me up by just stating the bare truth to me. Nothing but the cold hard truth. It just strike me like a bolt of lighting. You are simply superb in that. Letting people wake up from their illusion. Chatting with you had always been a joy as you always speak your heart. Happy Birthday to you!! Hope that next year you will have someone you loved by your side. Just try to cut down on the QC. :)
Last but not least, my bro Kenn. You really are great. You like been through so much shit this few weeks but yet can find the heart and time to spend time talking and encouraging an idiot like me. Words can't describle how I appreciated it. Bros forever!! I will get over this soon. I will be waiting for your return. ;)
And to the rest of my colleagues or friends who had given me encouragement or words on the Tag Board. I thank you all. I will get over this soon. It is just a bloody Crush. :)
Anyway, had a great dinner and beer with Jones, Guang, Jimmy and my idol Gary at Eunos just now. Thanks to Gary for the beer. I really need it at that moment. Talking about Gary. It always amaze me how he can always maintain his focus and energy. I had hardly seen him being down. The going for him was also tough at first. You gave me inspiration. I will strive my best in the business so the next time I can drink like mad without any worries. :) And no thanks to the ghost stories you guys talked about during the drinking. Close friends of mine should know that I hated ghost stories and horror films. I wasn't joking when I said I was a bit frightened by those stories. Esp the missed calls from the same room by Guang and the discman stopping by Jones. Damn.
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose
You tried so hard to be someone
That you forgot who you are
You tried to fill some emptiness
‘Til all you had spilled over
Now everything’s so far away
That you don’t know where you are, you are
Nitezz to all my friends who managed to read till here. All the best. :)
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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